Creating something that already exist

Hello hellu!

Today I watched Dead Poets Society, we had to watch it for our english class and I wasn't there when we saw the second half of it so I watched it today, at home.. yes, I am still sick sadly enough.. But now that I've seen it I think I can say it's the best film I've ever had to watch in school.. If I haven't forgot about any film now... well it was great anyway (even though "best in school" doesn't say much)!.. And I'm not afraid to say I was touched! And inspired! In many ways : ).. It may have been partly because I'm home and sick and weak right now but even if that is the case, so what? And when the credits were rolling I found myself thinking up a "new" word in english.. a mix between the word cry and the word laugh.. I wanted my word to mean "laughing and crying at the same time, knowing what made you do that but not if you are happy or sad, you just feel really.. filled with.. something! Feelings and so on" something like that.. I came up with craugh... like laugh so you would say "he was craughing".. the thing is; I looked it up and urbandictionary said the word already exsisted! While it didn't really mean exactly what I wanted it to mean it was indeed made up of a mixture of the same words I tried to mix and it meant something like "laughing 'til you cry" or something.. well I was satisfied with that and now I'm sitting here.. as sick as ever but a little bit happier at least : )

Make me better : )?

GAH! I hate this.. I've been sick for well over a week now.. and I feel so stressed out! And I still can't do anything about it.. I'm too powerless to do anything at home too, that includes homework.. and I still has this massive headache.. I'm starting to think my cough and all that is about to go away (although I always start coughing when I think that >_>') but my head still hurts just as much.. It feels like catching up will be such a bummer >_<.. Well I'll go... try to get better now

Wiee! Birthday

I'm sick on my birthday : (.. I'm just sitting here.. being sick.. and this is probably the most boring birthday ever -_-'.. Well at least it IS my birthday : )!.. I got a headset and some clothes and a cup : ).. My dad commented on the fact that it wasn't anything "big" like I've been getting the last couple of birthdays (Phone, Computer, Ps3 and so on).. but I realize that I don't feel like I really need anything like that anymore.. maybe it is because I'm less materialistic or maybe it's because I feel like I have most things I want.. or maybe it's because I focus on other stuff right now.. I don't know : ).. Well I hope you can enjoy this wonderful day for me in my place.

I'm so sick... period

Ok so well I had to give in, I am sick and I had to stay home today.. it was one of the most boring days of my life but my heart could be a little more still than usual.. I'm sick and it's my birthday tomorrow, thanks.. someone... for that!.. So yeah, real positive news today : )... Well I hope I get well and that you get better ;D

Oh.. and by the way!

There are two websites you can check out if you like music and trams/boats or if you just feel like it!

http://thetramsession.blogspot.com/

and

http://www.stockholmboatsessions.se/

To describe it shortly; they invite an artist to come play with them in a public vehicle.. I think Magnus Weideskog is worth checking out on boatsessions and Alex Bengtsson (not music.. more.. poetry slam or something I think?), Simon Norrsveden and Love Antell on tramsessions.. Note that I haven't seen all of the performances so I might have missed something really good.

Well at last the outer appearence fits the inner?

Gaaawsh.. I think I may be on my way to become really sick.. like; I-have-to-be-home sick or something.. It all depends on how I feel tomorrow morning.. right now I have a runny nose and a bad cough.. but I don't feel all that bad.. well to tell the truth; I don't have any apatite and I feel powerless.. but I'm a bit clearer in the head than I usually am when I'm sick.. so we'll see! The problem is; I don't want to be home from school.. it would only be worse than actually going.. even though it doesn't feel good at all to be at school these days.. for my own reasons : /.. Well.. sometimes it feels GREAT.. but because of that; once you realize that those feelings really aren't... how should I put it.. all that real.. that they really are temporary illusions of reality made up by me.. well then I feel really down : (.. I know that this probably doesn't make sense.. and I hope that it doesn't make too much sense because it is my way of trying to talk about things that I kind of want to talk about but at the same time feel like really would screw things up even more if I talked about. I'm quite fine with the subjects and the teachers right now, nothing really tough.. it's that other stuff that is harder.. at least I was happy all weekend.. mostly (it not solely) because I spent some times with two wonderful people last Friday.

On that.. positive(???.. not really, right?) note I leave you!

Did you expect me to write so "soon" again ;D?

Hello! I just want to say this before I tell you anything else; I know I change from several posts a week to.. one every two months, I know! But like I said right from the start (I think I wrote something about it, I know I thought about it that way at least); I'm writing first and foremost for my own enjoyment. That doesn't mean that I haven't tried to change some things and limit what I write about when I got a few readers and it doesn't mean that I don't want anyone to read. All it really means is; I'll write when I have the need to do it and when I feel like it, I hope it makes sense to you too like it does to me : ). (By the way; even though I may have had something I really really needed to get off my chest several times the last couple of weeks.. mainly the last week, it wasn't something that I could talk about here.. so in those cases I have people like Simon or Dogo and so on.. so you see.. even when I feel like writing, sometimes I go elsewhere to do it, hence so little content here)

Ok well so on to the actual "news", I had a great friday yesterday, I hung out with two classmates after school. I do hope they thought we had fun 'cause I sure had : ). Bah, now my nature shines through : (, see, I'm not all that confident ^^'. Well now you know that too! Oh and we were at my place to get my wallet for a short period of time.. and well.. lets just say that I've been cleaning my room today.. because I was a bit ashamed that it looked like it did XD!

Well, have a good one, bye!

Summary

I didn't sleep at home even one day this week away from school and I'm kind of.. exhausted..
I was at my cousin's place 2nd to 4th April, Rome 5th (went in the middle of the night between 4th and 5th) to 9th and UppCon 9th to 11th (today).. Too bad that there where huge parts of negative things engraved in all the fuzzy happiness.. I can mostly sum it up in one word; feelings. Mine during one of the adventures.. and my friend's during one of the other.. I have a huge amount of pictures and maybe I'll show them someday, until then; goodbye!