Fifth New Years Post

This is the fifth New Years post.

THE 40 QUESTIONS:

Just like I did the other years, I’ve answered 40 questions that I found at a page that doesn't exist anymore so I don't know who to give credit for them. Here are the questions:

1. What did you do in 2013 that you’d never done before?

I was the secretary for UNF in our county. I also wrote a bachelor thesis.

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I don't have any.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

I don't think so(?)

4. Did anyone close to you die?

Not really.

5. What countries did you visit?

My own.

6. What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?

I would like to feel better. I hope I'm already starting to. A job would be much appreciated too.

7. What date from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

The last full week of febuary I think. It's easy to remember the bad times I guess... although the week in the middle of summer when UNF, Junis and IOGT-NTO had our congress was fantastic too so maybe that!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

I managed to write my bachelor thesis. But maybe my honesty when it comes to ”falling in love” was bigger. I managed to be honest way faster than the times before in my life.

9. What was your biggest failure?

Getting nothing done aaaaaall autumn.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

Well I had an ear infection for 3 weeks.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

Maybe it was the prizes for our video game tournament we have every new years.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

My friends who supported me through my hardships. Especially my old internet friend maybe. We supported each other very much throughout the year.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

I don't think there was anyone like that. I guess I'm lucky in that sense!

14. Where did most of your money go?

I think it went towards school, even though I only went to school for the first half of the year.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

I don't now if I got all that excited about anything. Although I did get plesently surprised by many things!

16. What song will always remind you of 2013?

Empty Chairs at Empty Tables from Les Miserables. Partly because this year was much about Les Mis, partly because the song really touched me and partly because I was afraid, over a long period of time, that I would end up alone this year.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

I. happier or sadder?

I won't lie. I've had a rough year and I've been down and sad and so on much of the time. I'm quite ok right now but the the year as a whole was definetly sadder.

II. thinner or fatter?

Fatter. Gonna start running again though.

III. richer or poorer?

Poorer.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

I don't know, hang out with my friends?

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Being unactive.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

I celebrated with my family but celebrating with my friends was greater!

21. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?

I was at Kenny’s, for our yearly LAN-party and the gaming tournament we've created; HN (Honor of the Nerds), I enjoyed myself :D.

22. Did you fall in love in 2012?

Since I said no last year I'd have to say yes, that it happened this year. Cause I did. And she didn't feel the same. And that's that.

23. How many one-night stands?

0

24. What was your favorite TV program?

Så mycket bättre, season 4.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

I don't think so.

26. What was the best book you read?

Eh I don't know, I don't remember.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Ingrid Michaelsson, she is awesome!

28. What did you want and got?

I don't know. I wanted to finish my bachelor thesis in time and I did.

29. What did you want and not get?

I think there are some things but I can't really specify.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?

I think I didn't get to see Les Miserables until this year. So I'm cheating a bit and going to say that.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 22. I had one awesome birthday party with a whole lot of my friends, I won't forget that.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

More time and confidence.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 202?

I wear clothes, let me be. Also it's fun to try crazy stuff.

34. What kept you sane?

My friends.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Seriously just no.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

Overall equality and anti-rascism and things like that. Also job-politics.

37. Who did you miss?

I missed almost all of my friends actually. I felt like we didn't see eachother enough.

38. Who was the best new person you met?

I met a lot of new people through UNF and I really like many of them.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013:

Do stuff.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Like earlier years I will try to use ”only” 5 songs. They're more about what I've felt than what actually occured I think. Also they're not all about me directly. Heaven forbid and the line ”I don't know how to get you out of this one” is especially about trying to help others but all of them are kind of mixed bags of me and people close to me.

Fine white sheet and candles too
Beds in a straight row,
One’s for you
No one talks
Straight at you
Just outside in the hall way

Flowers in the window
Red and blue
Rose, people here still think of you
No bleeding eyes
When they pass
Don’t bang your head
Against the glass

What can I do
I am losing you
What can I do
I am losing you

From the doorway
watching you sleep
Before you wake up
not when you eat
Keep it straight
Wipe your mouth
Keep it down
Rose, don’t shout

What can I doo
I am losing you
What can I do
I am losing you
What can I doo
I am losing you
What can I do
I am losing you

Losing You by Anna Ternheim

Så var det med sommaren
Och tjong då var det höst igen
Med samma gamla trötta attribut

Det är inget nytt att det blir höst
Men inte heller någon tröst
Att veta att man har mått såhär förut

Jag drar halsduken allt hårdare runtom min hesa halls
Tills jag plötsligt inser att jag knappt kan andas alls
Det är väl inte det att något gör mig ledsen
Det är väl mera det att inget gör mig glad

Var god tag plats på nedstämdhetsexpressen
Enkel resa emot Melankolia stad

Visst borde jag ta mig i kragen
Leva ut och fånga dagen
Festa till och prova bungie-jump

Vara här och nu och mitt i livet
Men själva initiativet
Sitter märkligt fast som i en kramp

Så jag tror det att blir jag och TVn även denna kväll
Det känns förövrigt ganska skevt att gråta i en karusell
Blir mest beklämd utav upplevelsestressen
Visst vill jag vara med om, men vet inte vad

Så här kommer jag med nedstämdhetsexpressen
I hundrafemtio knyck mot Melankolia stad

Du säger att tröttheten mitt hjärta rymmer
Ja just den typen av bekymmer
Lider många människor av idag

Men du har svårare för att beskriva
Vad som är det positiva
Med att det finns fler som mår som jag

För jag skiter i om jag är en av hundratusental
Det gör ju inte mindre ont bara för att smärtan är normal
Själva omtanken ökar bara pressen
Det smakar skuld om varje kopp med varm choklad

Man har en egen vagn på nedstämdhetsexpressen
Man åker ensam emot Melankolia stad

Du säger att du saknar mig
Jag saknar saknaden i sig
Hur vackert, hur fult allting var

Och när allting kommer ikring
Är ju allting bättre än ingenting
Men ingenting är allting jag har kvar

Nu känner jag hur tåget saktar av och stannar till
Och jag reser långsamt på mig, det är väl inte att jag vill
Men vi är framme vid den slutliga adressen
Dags att ta plats i skuggfigurernas parad

Ändhållplats för nedstämdhetsexpressen
Vi är framme i Melankolia stad

Här går jag genom gråa gränder
Över askbeströdda stränder
Tunga steg i stillastånden höst

Genom tjock och klibbig dimma
Var minut känns som en timma
När jag plötsligt minns det sista av din röst

Du sa det här är inget avsked för när du väl kommer dit
Ja då kommer du att minnas, du är bara på visit
Jag vet ditt hjärta är så tungt att det vill fly ditt bröst
Och just nu är det kanske ingen lindring eller tröst

Men jag finns kvar på andra sidan av processen
Och du ska återvända som du alltid gjort

Det går returresor med nedstämdhetsexpressen
Dom går stadigt, men inte lika fort
Dom går stadigt, men inte lika fort

Melankolia stad by Loke Nyberg

Du säger att kärleken aldrig var till för dig
Att du aldrig känt vinden högt över trädtoppen
Du säger att den delar sig vid kinden
Och blir hel igen bakom dig

Varje moln är trasigt
Du räknar allt sorgligt natten lång
Och hon du älskade en gång
Och kanske älskar än
Spelar det någon roll?
Nej kanske ingen
Kanske allt egentligen

Du säger 'har du tändstickor?'
Ja tillräckligt om du vill bränna ner Stockholm
'Och har du vin och sprit?'
Så att det räcker att få hela fjärden full av sorger
Allt det är för sent
För sent för vin, för sent för kärlek ren som snö
Inatt finns ingen väg tillbaks

Och du undrar vem som kysser henne nu
Och du undrar vem
Vem om inte du
Och läpparna, du kallade dina
Det gör ont att veta
Men lika ont att undra

Du säger 'har du tändstickor?'
Ja tillräckligt om du vill bränna ner stockholm
'Och har du vin och sprit?'
Så att det räcker för att få hela fjärden full av sorger
Allt det är för sent
För sent för vin, för sent för kärlek ren som snö
Inatt finns ingen väg tillbaks, ingen alls

För sent för edelweiss
Ingen alls
För sent för edelweiss
Ingen alls
För sent för edelweiss

För sent för edelweiss by Håkan Hellström

Mother, give me back my old room
I won't make a mess like I used to,
won't play my records loud at nights,
I'll keep it quiet
Mother, let me have my old bed back
and lay out clothes for me.

People give me work and money
They depend on me now,
if they only knew how thin the ice they walk on is.
If they only knew how thin the ice they walk on
is

Mother, please make my decisions
like you once did,
this time I won't pester you about it,
I'll surrender Mother, these streets
are too cold for me
I'm standing by your door a plant under each arm,
let me move back in

Father, the last time you offered to teach me
all about the Baltic Sea it was wasted on me.
Now I'm ready, throw me once again
the footballs you tried to throw and this time
I will catch and learn and know

Mother, if that's not enough
bring me all the way back to
my original address
to your womb.

I have trouble sleeping but I don't recall I had while in your womb.

Parenting Never Ends by Hello Saferide

Twenty years, it's breaking you down
now that you understand there's no one around
Take a breath, just take a seat
you're falling apart and tearing at the seams

Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why
Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright

It's on your face, is it on your mind
would you care to build a house of your own
How much longer, how long can you wait
It's like you wanted to go and give yourself away

Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why
Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright
Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why
Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright

It feels good (Is that reason enough for you)
It feels good (Is that reason enough for you)
It feels good (Is that reason enough for you)
It feels good (Is that reason enough for you)

Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why
Hold on tight wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright
Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why
Hold on tight wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright

Out of this one
I don't know how to get you out of this one
I don't know how to get you out of this one
I don't know how to get you out of this one
I don't know how to get you out of this one

Heaven Forbid by The Fray

END-12 THE ONES LAST YEAR AWARDS!

I'm doing these awards again this year, yes. I'll be telling you my favourite in several different categories and a runner up.. in other words 2 titles/people/whatever wins in each category! There's not really any order to the two in each category so both win equally.

BEST LIVE PERFORMANCE 2013

Looptropp Rockers at IOGT-NTOs Kongresser in Borås

It was heartpounding, it was awesome, it was amazing.

Loke Nyberg during NärCon in Linköping.

I actually saw Bruce Springsteen again this year. I don't know if it's because new is always new but I couldn't leave out Loke or Looptroop Rockers even though Springsteen was great. Anyway, he's got great songs and I loved the short time I got to see him.

BEST ALBUM 2013

”Om du vill vara med mig” by Melissa Horn

A lot of artists that I like released albums this year. Melissa was the only one that didn't dissapoint I think. Her songs are as good as ever! Drömmen om Alice is one of my favorites.

"Mitt hjärta är en bomb” by Looptroop Rockers

This just proves that Looptroop Rockers should do more in swedish, almost all of the songs are just amazing in my eyes.

BEST GAME 2013

The Last of Us

It was just an incredible experience; to me, it was both emotional and a blooming world. I loved the dialog and the two characters.

The Stanley Parable

What can I say? Incredible dialog and an incredible exploration of choice and games and choice in games.

BEST ANIME 2013

Hunter x Hunter

I really love this series, everything about it. The king have been playing gungi for much of the year and even that is really awesome.

Shingeki no Kyojin

It came out of nowhere, it is huge all of a sudden, it is a little overrated, it could've been so much more. But at least the first season is really worthwhile to watch.

BEST MOVIE 2013

Les Miserables

Again, I saw it this year and didn't get a chance to award it prizes so I'm doing it now. I don't know what to say but; I'm in love with this movie and every song!

The Hunger Games: Catching Fire

Iron Man 3 was good, the second Hobbit-movie was good but to me, the second Hunger Games movie captivated me most of all, I'm surprised by that fact but it is the truth.

Awards taken out from last year:

Many, I felt like narrowing it down.

If you happen to have any award that you feel I should’ve given out, it’s not too late yet! If anybody suggests something in the comments I could give out more awards in a later post next month or something. But you have to give me categories for me to give prizes in.

Alright, that’s it. And now a classic: the song of today:

The song of today:
You and I by Ingrid Michaelson

I first listened to Ingrid Michaelson know who she was this year. And I just know that she is great. This song is what made me discover her music and I can guarantee I listened to like all her songs after hearing it. It is that good. It is so cute, sweet and inocent, at the same time it makes quite casual references to having sex. I feel that it is charming and doesn't take things to levels that things don't need to be taken to, love and sex could be just that simple. Also, I like the dreaming nature to the rest of the song, it is naive and lovely in that way.

That's it, I hope you have a fantastic year ahead of you, I will try to make mine awesome.