Thursday, 31 December 2020

Twelfth New Years Post

This is the twelfth New Years post.


THE 40 QUESTIONS:

Just like I did the other years, I’ve answered 40 questions that I found on a page that doesn't exist anymore so I don't know who to give credit to for them.Here are the questions:

1. What did you do in 2020 that you’d never done before?

I got a full-time job and my own apartment!

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

Naaah

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

No


4. Did anyone close to you die?

No but a friend of the family that was a big influence on me during my younger years is in the hospital and very sick with covid-19 so I'm hoping he recovers.

5. What countries did you visit?

I'm not one for traveling that much and this year especially wasn't a year for that. I barely even left town.

6. What would you like to have in 2021 that you lacked in 2020?

I'm happy to say that I've got income and a place of my own now, that I've been asking for in the last ones of these. Right now I think that I'd want a little space to breathe and rest and most of all the ability to hang out with friends. But until this pandemic passes, I'm determined to see people as little as possible to prevent spreading.

7. What date from 2020 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

I mean Covid doesn't have a really set date but it will always be the year this pandemic really broke out. But I think personally my midsummer was kind of memorable, a friend stopped by and we hung out on a really sunny day.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Being able to work.

9. What was your biggest failure?

Maybe I'm not really taking care of myself enough? I dunno, I'm pretty satisfied with what I've done this year. I think that my biggest failure could be that I've been bad at keeping in touch with friends, the times I've texted or called friends is kinda few unfortunately.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

I actually had a cough for like 12-13 weeks or something which was really annoying because it was at the same time that we were moving out of the house that we've lived in since 2000 and also because I couldn't start working.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

It was kind of nice to finally buy things I need and want, like a helmet, some games and other stuff that made my day just a little bit more pleasurable.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

All the people that actually were responsible and sacrificed some of their enjoyment to save lives.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

I followed the American election pretty closely and even though I know one person can't make a difference without a lot of other things, Bernie was inspiring to me and the move the other candidates did in the primary turned my stomach.


14. Where did most of your money go?

Rent! But that's not fun and it's probably going to be my answer for some time. So... I bought a lot of games digitally and also spent some money in pokemon go.


15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Hanging out with my friend at midsummer maybe?

16. What song will always remind you of 2020?

Maybe “New Friends” by Orla Gartland. It is really good and I listened to her online concerts during the first months of the pandemic. Maybe “Arne Alligator” will be the song to remind me of the first days of working full-time.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

I. happier or sadder?

I think happier?

II. thinner or fatter?

A bit fatter

III. richer or poorer?

Richer

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Showing friends how much they mean to me

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Worrying and stressing out

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

I was playing pokemon go by myself, my mother came by with presents and eggs but that was it. And it felt really nice.

21. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?

For the first time in over ten years I'm not going to be surrounded by lots of people. It is unfortunate but it is the truth. So I'm going to be grinding pokemon go as hard as I can.

22. Did you fall in love in 2020?

No I didn't.


23. How many one-night stands?

Zero

24. What was your favorite TV program?

Så mycket bättre. Maybe Mandalorian would count nowadays too.. So one of those two I think.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

No

26. What was the best book you read?

I actually finished Bruce by Peter Ames Carlin! So I'd have to say that one.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Hemliga Klubben, their songs are absolute monster bops.

28. What did you want and got?

Full-time job and an apartment. Closer relationships with my family.

29. What did you want and not get?

A nice stress-free start to my worklife.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?

I didn't watch all that much, most movies I wanted to see got pushed back.But maybe Birds of prey?

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I didn't celebrate it much because of the pandemic and me having a cough. I turned 29 so I'm soon thirty.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

To be able to spend time with friends.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2020?

Fullcolored cosy.

34. What kept you sane?

Playing Pokemon Go, going on those walks have been great.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Maybe Rosario Dawson haha? She did a fantastic job as Ahsoka on the Mandalorian and I really like her from before as Claire in the Marvel Netflix-series.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

Handling of the corona virus in our country and in the world. Also the american election, if the counts as an issue.

37. Who did you miss?

Some of my closest friends, and especially the people I play video games with because we stopped seeing each other entriely because of the pandemic.

38. Who was the best new person you met?

My colleagues at work, I think?

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2020:

If you make an effort yourself to connect to people who you feel should've made that effort in the first place, maybe their response can make up for the fact that they should've worked on the relationship in the first place.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Like earlier years I will try to use ”only” 5 songs.

I got my heart broken oh, I must be cursed

Say “come out with us now”, can't think of anything worse

Can I be on my own? For the night

It's just my way of cope, out of sight


I don't wanna dance through the heart ache

I don't wanna drink through the pain

I just wanna feel it all, feel it now

So I never feel this way again


You guys go without me

I'll just party by myself

I'll just party by myself, by myself

There's no need to be sorry

I'll just party by myself

I'll just party by myself, by myself


That four[?] to the flour, that second verse

I got the base in my bones, can't think of anything worse

I'm just here trying to hold it together you know

That I'm not my best


I don't wanna dance through the heart ache

I don't wanna drink through the pain

I just wanna feel it all, feel it now

So I never feel this way again, oh


You guys go without me

I'll just party by myself

I'll just party by myself, by myself

There's no need to be sorry

I'll just party by myself

I'll just party by myself, by myself


There's no invite

Me myself and I

Are gonna have a great time


So you guys go without me

I'll just party by myself, oh

Oh, by myself, by myself


Please, let me drown in all my sorrow

For the night


Oh please, I promise that I'll face the world tomorrow

But I need time


You guys go without me

I'll just party by myself

I'll just party by myself, by myself

There's no need to be sorry

I'll just party by myself

I'll just party by myself, by myself


Oh


You guys go without me

I'll just party by myself

I'll just party by myself, by myself

Oh

There's no need to be sorry

I'll just party by myself

I'll just party by myself, by myself


There's no invite

Me myself and I

Are gonna have a great time


So you guys go without me

I'll just party by myself, oh

Oh, by myself, by myself


Party by myself by Orla Gartland



Nu är den sköna sommarn här

med lust och fägring stor. 

Och bruna ben och tunna skor 

och mesen som i holken bor 

och doft av hägg och kaffekask 

och burken full av mask. 

 

Och knappt har solen sjunkit ner 

så börjar den gå opp. 

Och i fabriken är det stopp, 

på skorstenspipans högsta topp 

har sädesärlan byggt sitt bo. 

Allt andas frid och ro. 

 

Och vår fabriks direktör 

går det strålande för. 

Han tog kosingen med sig 

och stack, som dom gör 

från en tyngande skatt. 

Och nu ryktas det att 

han med skattmasen leker tafatt. 

 

Sen är den sköna hösten här 

som vi har väntat på, 

med gula löv och mogna bär 

och äppelträn med äpplen på 

och kylig natt och blåsig dag 

och litet socialbidrag som man kan dra sig fram uppå 

så varför gnälla då? 

 

Och vår chefsingenjör 

går det strålande för. 

Han fick kosing av staten 

att fortsätta för 

lika glatt som förut 

någonstans söderut 

går han på parti och minut. 

 

Sen är den sköna vintern här 

som vi har väntat på. 

På vintrig hård och frusen mark 

vi färdas på en gammal spark. 

Först biten till förmedlingen 

och sedan åter hem igen 

med samma avslag som förut. 

Och sen tar vintern slut. 

 

Men fabrikens kamrer 

får vi knappast se mer, 

för han fick det som lagen 

åt brottslingar ger. 

Något år får han gå 

i en kåk ful och grå 

för dom siffror som han trodde på. 

 

Sen kommer vårens sköna tid 

som vi har väntat på 

när bäcken porlar glad och strid 

och lärkan sina drillar slå 

och marken gror och går i knopp 

Runtom min sysslolösa kropp 

och uppåt stiger trädens sav 

som det blir sommar av. 

 

Och nu ska udda bli jämnt 

det har kommunen bestämt. 

För fabriken, som utsikten 

länge har skämt, 

och där möda och slit 

luktar blod, svett och skit, 

tar man bort med en dos dynamit. 

 

 Sen är den sköna sommarn här 

med lust och fägring stor 

och bruna ben och tunna skor 

och mesen som i holken bor 

och kaffekask och dragspelslåt 

och getingbon och motorbåt 

och Mjölkcentralens kalla glass 

och utedans och utedass 

och dunket från en fiskesmack 

och juice i tetrapack. 

 

 Och man är ledig och fri 

och det skiter man i 

för det kvittar snart hur det ska bli. 

 

Årstider by Allan Edwall


Som du sa, jag kan ta å 

Hälsa på nån gång, å du kan, komma hit 

Men om jag ska va ärlig 

Vet jag mycket väl det blir nog aldrig vi 

 

Å jag öppna ett fönster, nån blåser en vind 

Å jag bryter min lag 

Tror vi kunde blivit nåt fint men vi ska 

 

Bara vara, vara vänner 

Tala om allt men vi ska, tala om allt men vi ska 

Bara vara, vara vänner 

Tala om allt men vi ska, tala om allt men vi ska 

 

Pappa sa "du kommer glömma 

Allting som behövs nu e lite tid" 

Det är kanske dumt att spara bilder 

Gräva runt i minnen, vara destruktiv 

 

Å jag öppna ett fönster, nån blåser en vind 

Å jag bryter min lag 

Tror vi kunde blivit nåt fint men vi ska 

 

Bara vara, vara vänner 

Tala om allt men vi ska, tala om allt men vi ska 

Bara vara, vara vänner 

Tala om allt men vi ska, tala om allt men vi ska 

 

Nu är vi tysta ett tag vi 

När du tittar på mig jag 

Måste tänka mig för

Ibland önskar jag att du inte såg ut som du gör 

 

Bara vara, vara vänner 

Tala om allt men vi ska, tala om allt men vi ska 

Bara vara, vara vänner 

Tala om allt men vi ska, tala om allt men vi ska 

Bara vara, vara vänner 

Tala om allt men vi ska, tala om allt men vi ska 

Tala om allt men vi ska, tala om allt men vi ska 

Tala om allt men vi ska, tala om allt men vi ska 

 

 Vara vänner by Ana Diaz

 

När mitt stockholm, mitt Stockholm 

När mitt Stockholm, Stockholm 

 

Åh, det är skönt när mitt Stockholm är grönt 

Sakta gå hem genom stan 

En kyss, sen går man sakta igen 

Sakta en tur genom stan 

 

Åh, det är natt och på avstånd hörs skratt 

Och man går hem genom stan

En doft av hö från nån ljuv skärgårdsö 

Smyger sig tyst intill stan 

 

Precis som din arm så lätt och så varm 

Känns sommarens vind mot min kind 

Och natten står still, den finns inte till

En tystnad, en skugga, en vind 

 

Den är så kort och den glider tyst bort 

När trastarna vaknar i stan 

Klockan är två hela himlen är blå 

Sakta vi går genom stan 

 

Sakta hitåt ror en man i en båt 

Stannar och ser på en svan 

Allt är tyst och jag tiger nyss kysst 

Sakta vi går genom stan 

 

På Västerbron i den himmelska ron

 En spårvagn går ensam och tom 

Alla hus målar natten i ljus 

Hemligt går träden i blom 

 

Så stannar vi till vid fåglarnas drill 

Vi känner en doft av viol 

Och glada vi hör en jublande kör 

Då stiger en gnistrande sol 

 

Åh, det är skönt när mitt Stoclkholm är grönt

Sakta en natt då i stan 

En kyss, sen börja vandra igen 

Sakta vi går genom stan 

 

Sakta vi gå genom stan by Eric Gadd (I know it’s a cover of a great Monica Zetterlund song)

 

Jag har tavlorna kvar längs med golvet 

Ingen hänger på väggen än 

Jag gör det jag skulle imorgon 

Och alla är trötta på mig 

 

 Det kom inget regn den här sommar'n 

Men från mig föll ett eftergråt 

Nå'n höll ett tal på en middag 

Och jag fick storma ut efteråt 

 

Från en relation till en annan 

Jag har blandat ihop era namn 

Jag är skadad av referenser 

Och mitt eget namn 

 

Det vackraste som hänt mig 

Var ett åskväder uppifrån 

Jag känner mig ganska stark ändå 

Trots ett helvetes år

 

 Jag har lärt mig en del om gränser 

Var tvungen att dra en 

Jag är fortfarande sorgsen 

Men fri, äntligen 

 

Jag ringde en gång i augusti 

Men det kom inte fram någon signal 

Jag ville så gärna vara din då 

Nu ska jag vara själv ett tag 

 

Bamad har flyttat från Sverige 

Han kommer nog inte tillbaks 

Andra har jag knappt sett 

Natanael har skaffat två barn 

 

Jag känner mig ensam ofta 

Så har det väl alltid var't, men 

Det är något sorgligt med att vika lakan själv 

Och att inte få säga god natt 

 

Visst var jag aldrig romantisk 

Det var du som tog bilder på mig 

Nu är färgerna på träden 

Som filmer jag sett med dig 

 

Aja, jag måste gå nu 

De andra väntar på mig 

Jag ville väl bara säga 

Att jag saknar dig 

 

Sång från ett kalas by Melissa Horn


END-20 THE ONES LAST YEAR AWARDS!

Awards! 2 titles/people/whatever wins in each category! There's not really any order to the two in each category so both win equally.

BEST ALBUM 2020

“Freckle season” by Orla Gartland.
It is just an EP but oh it's sooooo good, SO good. I think I loved “Heavy” before or something and it's a solid 8 but I think it's my least favorite song on the EP, so that's saying a lot! “New Friends” is like a 11 out of 10, it is great, I love it. All of it. “Oh GOD” is so good. It's all so good, I love the lyrics, the music compliments it supurbly.

“Evermore” by Taylor Swift

People that know me know that I like Springsteen because I were him on my t-shirts all the time. But in a year were he released an album, there was still music that I had to choose over his. Much of it has to do with the fact that I didn't get that into “Letter to you” but it is also because I got waaay into “Evermore” towards the end of the year when it released. This feels like Taylor Swift music made specifically to cater to my tastes. It's like folksy, singer-songwriter but also so melodic and pop. I feel like the song “Evermore” is a little wonky and I'm still deciding if I like that, it feels like Swifts part and Bon Ivers are a little disconnected and we'll see what that grows into when I listen to it more, I do like the parts at present though. Other notable songs to me are “No body, no crime”, which is kind of chilling and cool and like a morbid revenge story that just works when so many revenge stories don't and “'Tis the damn season” which might be my favorite. The other songs are great too and I like to listen to the whole album.


BEST GAME 2020

Super Mario Bros. 35
I like old school platformers and this gave me that but in a new way.

Fall Guys

I guess I had fun watching people play Fall Guys, I don't think I played any more games released this year so this'll have to do. Although I have bought Hades and My Hero One's Justice 2 and look forward to trying them. And If I wanted maybe I could've counted Pokemon Gos biggest update yet which released a higher level cap and a lot of fun things.


BEST ANIME 2020

One Piece

I haven't watched all that much other anime and this Wano stuff is goooood.

My Hero Academia season 4

It was really nice so I'll put it on here twice, the season ended this year but began last year, so I was still satisfied with it when it ended.


BEST MOVIE 2020

Birds of Prey
This was a fresh start for Margot Robbies Harley Quinn and I really liked it. It didn't hit it out of the park but it was a great deal more enjoyable than most other DC-films I've seen.


Extraction

It was pretty good entertainment. It is here because any other movie I watched were older ones. There are some from this year that I'm going to watch and want to watch like Wonder Woman 1984 (maybe I'll count that as a 2021 film because it isn't released in my country yet). Soul and the recording of Hamilton that is on Disney+.


Awards taken out from last year:

None, these are the ones that feel relevant for now.

If you happen to have any award that you feel I should’ve given out, tell me! If anybody suggests something in the comments I could give out more awards next year.

The song of today:
Dina föräldrar – akustisk version by Hemliga Klubben

Hemliga Klubben is great, listen to them! So quirky lyrics that go with their great instrumentation. This choice is because of the lyrics because they really stand on their own but I implore you to listen to all of their stuff.

This year was weird to live through.