Sixth New Years post

This is the sixth New Years post.

THE 40 QUESTIONS:

Just like I did the other years, I’ve answered 40 questions that I found on a page that doesn't exist anymore so I don't know who to give credit to for them. Here are the questions:

1. What did you do in 2014 that you’d never done before?

I was chairman for UNF in our county, V(/B)ästmanland. I also began to study again, pre-school teacher, let's see how that goes. Also, I participated in Höjdaren Socialt, it was something I hope I will remember for a long time.

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I don't have any.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

I don't know if it's that close but my new classmate that is already my old classmate gave birth.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

No.

5. What countries did you visit?

No other countries.

6. What would you like to have in 2015 that you lacked in 2014?

I hope that the stability and drive I've had during autumn will continue, having no job, having some trouble dealing with friends and so on wasn't that fun during the first half of the year.

7. What date from 2014 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

Probably 23 to 27 december, when we held Vit Jul Västerås in Västerås, 'cause it's a really big thing and I'm happy we were able to provide activities for young people during christmas.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

I chose to study again, and this time it feels kinda defining, so settling for such an option is scary and I'm proud.

9. What was your biggest failure?

I didn't manage to stop a process or two within UNF that I didn't want to end up in from the beginning.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

I had colds and stuff like that more than usual, especially during the final stretch of the year.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

I bought a christmas present for my great friend together with her sister during NärCon in the summer. It was big, round, a cat, fluffy and totally worth it!

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

The one who received the present from me. I feel we've spent much time together this year and that we got even closer than before, it makes my heart happy to think about how much we've done despite our tight scheduels this year. So that friendship is worth more than any exaggerated example I can think of.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

A huge deal of the population of my country? That a fascist party such as Sverigedemokraterna can get so many votes makes my heart sad and makes me wanna see a brighter future with a more happy country.

14. Where did most of your money go?

Maybe it's the travel costs to school? Though, I don't think I've ever spent so much money on gifts so that should be noted.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Friend-christmas and everything around it. I got really caught up. Also writing a calendar of my fictional universe.

16. What song will always remind you of 2014?

Do you want to build a snowman from Frozen.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

I. happier or sadder?

I guess I'm happier since last year I sounded pretty down.

II. thinner or fatter?

I feel thinner but I've done nothing to pursue that.

III. richer or poorer?

Richer.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Rest. A little bit too much to do this year.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Longing, missing.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

With family, with friends and with anyone who wants to come during Vit Jul Västerås. 3 celebrations!

21. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?

At Kenny’s, for our yearly LAN-party and HN, the tournament I help run during it, it will be awesome!

22. Did you fall in love in 2014?

No. Love is weird.

23. How many one-night stands?

0

24. What was your favorite TV program?

Så mycket bättre, season 5.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

Maybe I've gotten to know more faces of political oponents and spreaders of hatred so yes?

26. What was the best book you read?

The book that my friend have written :)

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Maybe it's Jonas Alaska, no, it's probably Partiet.

28. What did you want and got?

I wanted to see the strenght in some of my friendships confirmed.

29. What did you want and not get?

Even more time with some people that weren't really available.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?

The Hobbit, the battle of the five armies

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 23. I don't know what I did, that might be a sign of how bad everything was for a period there in spring.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Teleportation.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2014?

I hope people see me through or through my clothes.

34. What kept you sane?

My drive and doing stuff all the time.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Seriously just no.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

Well, it was election, so many issues surrounding that, but the right to vote for what you believe in feels important still. Ofcourse this is something that connects to so many issues but I'll leave it at that.

37. Who did you miss?

I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss my friend who studied in another city during the first half of the year.

38. Who was the best new person you met?

I met very awesome people through UNF but I also met new classmates. Don't make me choose.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2014:

Always check what you can manage (although I already know this I have a hard time following it).

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Like earlier years I will try to use ”only” 5 songs.

Do you wanna build a snowman?
Come on lets go and play
I never see you anymore
Come out the door
It's like you've gone away-
We used to be best buddies
And now we're not
I wish you would tell me why!-
Do you wanna build a snowman?
It doesn't have to be a snowman.

Go away, Anna

Okay, bye...

Do you wanna build a snowman?
Or ride our bikes around the halls
I think some company is overdue
I've started talking to
the pictures on the walls-
(Hang in there, Joan!)
It gets a little lonely
All these empty rooms,

Just watching the hours tick by-

Elsa?
Please, I know you're in there,
People are asking where you've been
They say "have courage", and I'm trying to
I'm right out here for you, just let me in
We only have each other
It's just you and me
What are we gonna do?

Do you wanna build a Snowman?

Do you wanna build a Snowman from Frozen

Dom kallar det för ”Supervalåret”
och gör det till ännu mer av ett jippo
Dom kränger politik men vem tjänar på det?
Min röst ska dom aldrig sätta pris på

Se igenom propagandan
och rösta på det som känns rätt
Om inte för dig så för nån annan
kan det betyda hur mycket som helst

Ok, så jag får välja mellan cancer och HIV
tack, det är ändå samma gubbar som styr
dom har till och med samma PR-strategi
säger: ”Alla behövs” – VM i plattityd

Du har fått så himla mycket gratis som dom flesta bara drömmer om
Politiska partier jobbar hårt, du bara dömmer dom
och glömmer dom som byggt upp fundamentet där du står
du är skyldig dom en röst, det tar en kvart var fjärde år

Vart fjärde år är det ett jävla skådespel
som du legitimerar med din röst
och om du spelar med så får du stå för det
oavsett vem som vinner nu i höst

Det du kallar skådespel, har uppnått en hel del
Se dig omkring och säg vad som är fel
med skola och vård och bostadsbidrag
Politiker ska tackas för mycket vi har!

Jag känner inte ett uns av tacksamhet
mot politiker som skär ner verksamhet
och om det låter hårt är det dags för dig
att vakna upp, ta och lukta på kaffet man!

För det är folkets kamp som har lett oss fram
till den välfärd vi har nu idag
medan politiker gör så gott dom kan
för att nedmontera och ta tillbaks

Precis och nu kan du rösta på nån som vill bygga upp
och snygga upp det som högern har fuckat upp
Din mupp! Det är inte ens komplicerat
Söndan, lappen, kuvertet, vad mera?

Så hela din politiska gärning
och längtan efter demokrati
reduceras till att du får ställning
till blå eller röd slipsfärg på ett parti?

Du kanske skiter i, om det är blått eller rött
men argumenten som gör mig så trött
är: “Det spelar ingen roll, allt är skit ändå”
och visst, det står fritt för dig att känna så

Men förstå, alla som inte är du
som inte har råd med fin bil och hus
vars liv kan förändras stort och på riktigt
Säg till dom att politiken inte är viktig!

Vem har sagt att politik inte är viktigt?
Men kör ditt race för jag går en annan riktning
Sjunger en sång, går vegan, gömmer en flykting
Möter aldrig hatet med en axelryckning

Du förvränger mina ord och du gör det med flit
för Fredrik jag tror du har hört min musik
Kanske svårt för nån som döpt sitt band till Partiet
att se skillnad på politik och partipolitik?

Jag ser saken klar: Du vill va rebell
”Proffsmårten” som kan göra allting själv
Men när du växer upp så kommer du att se
att hela vår demokrati är precis som DVSG

Ja, när den lilla människan, tillsammans på nåt vis
kan föra ojämn kamp men göra världen mindre orättvis
Det finns eldsjälar i nästan varje parti
så, är allt du tänker bidra med din intellektuella kritik?

Och när människor dör i sin kamp
för att få rösta på sin representant
Då blir det du gör ignorant
historielöst och nonchalant!

Nej, när människor dör för demokrati
och för rätten att bestämma om sitt liv
Då blir detta spel en parodi
en travesti, tragedi, idioti!

Supervalåret by Partiet and Promoe
Samma känslor
det är ett tag sen
men som om allt stått still
Du säger
att du blir kvar här, räckte inte till
För du vet inte vad du vill
Men, vad är det för jävla fel
i att bli den som blev kvar,
i våran stad där vi vuxit upp
vad är det för fel i att älska det man har

Ikväll så skapar vi nya minnen
vi ska leva som unga igen
försten i vattnet vinner
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah oooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah oooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen

Samma tankar, jag kanske flyttar
behövde komma bort
Från staden, med alla spöken
av blandad sort
jag stack från allt ja jag stack fort
Men vad är det för jävla fel i att bli den som blir kvar
i våran stad där vi vuxit upp
vad är det för fel i att älska det man har

Ikväll så skapar vi nya minnen
vi ska leva som unga igen
Försten i vattnet vinner
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah ooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah ooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen

Ikväll så skapar vi nya minnen
vi ska leva som unga igen
Försten i vattnet vinner
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah oooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah oooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah oooh
aaah oooh

Halmstad by Linnea Henriksson

Get out! this is meant to be shocking
Perverted disturbed this bird's mocking
Who's to say what's culture who's watching
Who's knocking
Get out! they're here to carry me away
Not done till i'm buried in a grave
And no one left to hear me when i say
They got rid of em all
Get out! turncoats turn folks into scapegoats
Burn crosses burn mosques lay low
No way burn every flag every nation
High horses hypocritical halo
Swastika carved on your face yo
9/19 what a day of shame for
The most enlightened country or you say so
But how modern is it to be racial

Well it looks to me
Like our history's
Running on repeat
Over and over again

Oh no, i don't follow you
'cus you're clearly delusional, all of you
In here we a family, i know it bothers you
Feeling left out of our little rendez vous
Boo, it's a scary thought i know
That my brother's bilingual and minutes ago
I was talking to my mother in law
Still got an accent after 35 years in this snow
Whoa, what a horrible crime
Cooking something that i've never seen in my life
And she's scared of this sweden that you vote and she paid for
Modern, enlightened, i heard when you said so..

Well it looks to me
Like our history's
Running on repeat
Over and over again

Go, get out now how you gon' react?
Go, stay out the ball is bouncing back!

You wanna isolate yourself, crush peoples dreams
Deny families to live in peace
But tell me how it feels out in the cold
When the hate that you breed is coming for your soul
Once again ignorance is hiding
Wolf in a sheeps suit and tie crying
(hit me) and they call it a bluff
That we see kids in apathy cus they had enough
Who's gonna stop us, who's gonna close the door?
As long as we live and got our vocal cords
Watch who you voting for, this state's so
Modern, enlightened, i heard when they said it's so…

Well it looks to me
Like our history's
Running on repeat
Over and over again

On Repeat by Looptroop Rockers

Thank you for being a friend
Traveled down the road and back again
your heart is true you're a pal and a confidant

I'm not ashamed to say
I hope it always will stay this way
My hat is off, won't you stand up and take a bow

And if you threw a party
Invited everyone you knew
You would see, the biggest gift would be from me
and the card attached would say,
Thank you for being a friend

Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend

If it's a car you lack
I'd surely buy you a cadillac
Whatever you need, anytime of the day or night

I'm not ashamed to say
I hope it always will stay this way
My hat is off, won't you stand up and take a bow

And when we both get older
With walking canes and hair of gray
Have no fear, even though it's hard to hear
I will stand real close and say,
Thank you for being a friend

(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Let me tell you bout a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend

And when we die and float away
Into the night, the Milky Way
You'll hear me call, as we ascend
I'll see you there, then once again
Thank you for being a..

Ba ba ba ba ba ba ba

Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you) [and so on]
Whoa, tell you about a friend
(Thank you right now, for being a friend)
Thank you for being a friend
(I wanna tell you right now, and tell you again)
Thank you for being a friend
(I wanna thank you, thank you, for being a friend)
Thank you for being a friend

Thank you for being a friend by Andrew Gold

END-12 THE ONES LAST YEAR AWARDS!

I'm doing these awards again this year, yes. I'll be telling you my favourite in several different categories and a runner up.. in other words 2 titles/people/whatever wins in each category! There's not really any order to the two in each category so both win equally.

BEST LIVE PERFORMANCE 2014

Navid Modiri och Gudarna 

It was fantastic, it was great, we, the whole room, danced and my heart sang.

Loke Nyberg during NärCon in Linköping.

If I could bring any other performance to mind I would've picked that because Loke won last year too and I remember last years concert more fondly. I'm not trying to say that it was bad though, it was really enjoyable.

BEST ALBUM 2014

”Du söker bråk, jag kräver dans” by Linnea Henriksson

So great! I really love the music Linnea Henriksson makes, it almost always hits home. Such a good songwriter!

”Rastlöst blod” by Markus Krunegård

I've listened to this quite a bit and it's quite great, his lyrics are often spot on and the music matches.

BEST GAME 2014

Super Smash Bros for Wii U

Smash has a very special place in my heart and the game didn't disapoint in my opinion, I will be playing this for ages I think.

Shovel Knight

A fantastic use of the pixel look and feel that I love, mixed with some great ideas.

BEST ANIME 2014

Hunter x Hunter

I really love this series, everything about it. I'm so sad that it ended. I had a great time watching the series again with my great friend, further hightening my love for the series.

Dragon Ball Kai

It is quite fun to watch my childhood favorite manga in crisp animé-form.

BEST MOVIE 2014

The Hobbit: The Battle of The Five Armies

I've seen it twice already, it's got everything I could've wanted I think.

Frozen

Neither Captain America: The Winter Soldier or Maleficent melted my heart like this movie. X-men and Hunger games had cool bits. But none of them came close to being as cool as Frozen, I simply love it. The four movies I mentioned would be the runner-ups though, Guardians of the Galaxy and things like that were ok but not on the same level. I love the fact that this movie exist and hope that Disney continues to break their stereotypical portrayals and does it even more.

Awards taken out from last year:

None, I'm quite happy with this narrowed down version.

If you happen to have any award that you feel I should’ve given out, it’s not too late yet! If anybody suggests something in the comments I could give out more awards later.

That was another year, and now I give you; the song of today:

The song of today:
I Wrote a Song for You by Jonas Alaska

Spotify helped me find this. And I love it, I really do, I like lyrics about things that are hard to deal with and heartbreaking, this really is that. The many different examples just drives home the unbelieveable sorrow and the terrible situation. Great, striking lyrics with a kind of easygoing tune to back it up. It createates a nice contrast and I just keep on listening.

That's it, I hope you have a fantastic year ahead of you, I will make mine awesome.

Fifth New Years Post

This is the fifth New Years post.

THE 40 QUESTIONS:

Just like I did the other years, I’ve answered 40 questions that I found at a page that doesn't exist anymore so I don't know who to give credit for them. Here are the questions:

1. What did you do in 2013 that you’d never done before?

I was the secretary for UNF in our county. I also wrote a bachelor thesis.

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I don't have any.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

I don't think so(?)

4. Did anyone close to you die?

Not really.

5. What countries did you visit?

My own.

6. What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?

I would like to feel better. I hope I'm already starting to. A job would be much appreciated too.

7. What date from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

The last full week of febuary I think. It's easy to remember the bad times I guess... although the week in the middle of summer when UNF, Junis and IOGT-NTO had our congress was fantastic too so maybe that!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

I managed to write my bachelor thesis. But maybe my honesty when it comes to ”falling in love” was bigger. I managed to be honest way faster than the times before in my life.

9. What was your biggest failure?

Getting nothing done aaaaaall autumn.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

Well I had an ear infection for 3 weeks.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

Maybe it was the prizes for our video game tournament we have every new years.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

My friends who supported me through my hardships. Especially my old internet friend maybe. We supported each other very much throughout the year.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

I don't think there was anyone like that. I guess I'm lucky in that sense!

14. Where did most of your money go?

I think it went towards school, even though I only went to school for the first half of the year.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

I don't now if I got all that excited about anything. Although I did get plesently surprised by many things!

16. What song will always remind you of 2013?

Empty Chairs at Empty Tables from Les Miserables. Partly because this year was much about Les Mis, partly because the song really touched me and partly because I was afraid, over a long period of time, that I would end up alone this year.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

I. happier or sadder?

I won't lie. I've had a rough year and I've been down and sad and so on much of the time. I'm quite ok right now but the the year as a whole was definetly sadder.

II. thinner or fatter?

Fatter. Gonna start running again though.

III. richer or poorer?

Poorer.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

I don't know, hang out with my friends?

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Being unactive.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

I celebrated with my family but celebrating with my friends was greater!

21. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?

I was at Kenny’s, for our yearly LAN-party and the gaming tournament we've created; HN (Honor of the Nerds), I enjoyed myself :D.

22. Did you fall in love in 2012?

Since I said no last year I'd have to say yes, that it happened this year. Cause I did. And she didn't feel the same. And that's that.

23. How many one-night stands?

0

24. What was your favorite TV program?

Så mycket bättre, season 4.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

I don't think so.

26. What was the best book you read?

Eh I don't know, I don't remember.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Ingrid Michaelsson, she is awesome!

28. What did you want and got?

I don't know. I wanted to finish my bachelor thesis in time and I did.

29. What did you want and not get?

I think there are some things but I can't really specify.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?

I think I didn't get to see Les Miserables until this year. So I'm cheating a bit and going to say that.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 22. I had one awesome birthday party with a whole lot of my friends, I won't forget that.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

More time and confidence.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 202?

I wear clothes, let me be. Also it's fun to try crazy stuff.

34. What kept you sane?

My friends.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Seriously just no.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

Overall equality and anti-rascism and things like that. Also job-politics.

37. Who did you miss?

I missed almost all of my friends actually. I felt like we didn't see eachother enough.

38. Who was the best new person you met?

I met a lot of new people through UNF and I really like many of them.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013:

Do stuff.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Like earlier years I will try to use ”only” 5 songs. They're more about what I've felt than what actually occured I think. Also they're not all about me directly. Heaven forbid and the line ”I don't know how to get you out of this one” is especially about trying to help others but all of them are kind of mixed bags of me and people close to me.

Fine white sheet and candles too
Beds in a straight row,
One’s for you
No one talks
Straight at you
Just outside in the hall way

Flowers in the window
Red and blue
Rose, people here still think of you
No bleeding eyes
When they pass
Don’t bang your head
Against the glass

What can I do
I am losing you
What can I do
I am losing you

From the doorway
watching you sleep
Before you wake up
not when you eat
Keep it straight
Wipe your mouth
Keep it down
Rose, don’t shout

What can I doo
I am losing you
What can I do
I am losing you
What can I doo
I am losing you
What can I do
I am losing you

Losing You by Anna Ternheim

Så var det med sommaren
Och tjong då var det höst igen
Med samma gamla trötta attribut

Det är inget nytt att det blir höst
Men inte heller någon tröst
Att veta att man har mått såhär förut

Jag drar halsduken allt hårdare runtom min hesa halls
Tills jag plötsligt inser att jag knappt kan andas alls
Det är väl inte det att något gör mig ledsen
Det är väl mera det att inget gör mig glad

Var god tag plats på nedstämdhetsexpressen
Enkel resa emot Melankolia stad

Visst borde jag ta mig i kragen
Leva ut och fånga dagen
Festa till och prova bungie-jump

Vara här och nu och mitt i livet
Men själva initiativet
Sitter märkligt fast som i en kramp

Så jag tror det att blir jag och TVn även denna kväll
Det känns förövrigt ganska skevt att gråta i en karusell
Blir mest beklämd utav upplevelsestressen
Visst vill jag vara med om, men vet inte vad

Så här kommer jag med nedstämdhetsexpressen
I hundrafemtio knyck mot Melankolia stad

Du säger att tröttheten mitt hjärta rymmer
Ja just den typen av bekymmer
Lider många människor av idag

Men du har svårare för att beskriva
Vad som är det positiva
Med att det finns fler som mår som jag

För jag skiter i om jag är en av hundratusental
Det gör ju inte mindre ont bara för att smärtan är normal
Själva omtanken ökar bara pressen
Det smakar skuld om varje kopp med varm choklad

Man har en egen vagn på nedstämdhetsexpressen
Man åker ensam emot Melankolia stad

Du säger att du saknar mig
Jag saknar saknaden i sig
Hur vackert, hur fult allting var

Och när allting kommer ikring
Är ju allting bättre än ingenting
Men ingenting är allting jag har kvar

Nu känner jag hur tåget saktar av och stannar till
Och jag reser långsamt på mig, det är väl inte att jag vill
Men vi är framme vid den slutliga adressen
Dags att ta plats i skuggfigurernas parad

Ändhållplats för nedstämdhetsexpressen
Vi är framme i Melankolia stad

Här går jag genom gråa gränder
Över askbeströdda stränder
Tunga steg i stillastånden höst

Genom tjock och klibbig dimma
Var minut känns som en timma
När jag plötsligt minns det sista av din röst

Du sa det här är inget avsked för när du väl kommer dit
Ja då kommer du att minnas, du är bara på visit
Jag vet ditt hjärta är så tungt att det vill fly ditt bröst
Och just nu är det kanske ingen lindring eller tröst

Men jag finns kvar på andra sidan av processen
Och du ska återvända som du alltid gjort

Det går returresor med nedstämdhetsexpressen
Dom går stadigt, men inte lika fort
Dom går stadigt, men inte lika fort

Melankolia stad by Loke Nyberg

Du säger att kärleken aldrig var till för dig
Att du aldrig känt vinden högt över trädtoppen
Du säger att den delar sig vid kinden
Och blir hel igen bakom dig

Varje moln är trasigt
Du räknar allt sorgligt natten lång
Och hon du älskade en gång
Och kanske älskar än
Spelar det någon roll?
Nej kanske ingen
Kanske allt egentligen

Du säger 'har du tändstickor?'
Ja tillräckligt om du vill bränna ner Stockholm
'Och har du vin och sprit?'
Så att det räcker att få hela fjärden full av sorger
Allt det är för sent
För sent för vin, för sent för kärlek ren som snö
Inatt finns ingen väg tillbaks

Och du undrar vem som kysser henne nu
Och du undrar vem
Vem om inte du
Och läpparna, du kallade dina
Det gör ont att veta
Men lika ont att undra

Du säger 'har du tändstickor?'
Ja tillräckligt om du vill bränna ner stockholm
'Och har du vin och sprit?'
Så att det räcker för att få hela fjärden full av sorger
Allt det är för sent
För sent för vin, för sent för kärlek ren som snö
Inatt finns ingen väg tillbaks, ingen alls

För sent för edelweiss
Ingen alls
För sent för edelweiss
Ingen alls
För sent för edelweiss

För sent för edelweiss by Håkan Hellström

Mother, give me back my old room
I won't make a mess like I used to,
won't play my records loud at nights,
I'll keep it quiet
Mother, let me have my old bed back
and lay out clothes for me.

People give me work and money
They depend on me now,
if they only knew how thin the ice they walk on is.
If they only knew how thin the ice they walk on
is

Mother, please make my decisions
like you once did,
this time I won't pester you about it,
I'll surrender Mother, these streets
are too cold for me
I'm standing by your door a plant under each arm,
let me move back in

Father, the last time you offered to teach me
all about the Baltic Sea it was wasted on me.
Now I'm ready, throw me once again
the footballs you tried to throw and this time
I will catch and learn and know

Mother, if that's not enough
bring me all the way back to
my original address
to your womb.

I have trouble sleeping but I don't recall I had while in your womb.

Parenting Never Ends by Hello Saferide

Twenty years, it's breaking you down
now that you understand there's no one around
Take a breath, just take a seat
you're falling apart and tearing at the seams

Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why
Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright

It's on your face, is it on your mind
would you care to build a house of your own
How much longer, how long can you wait
It's like you wanted to go and give yourself away

Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why
Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright
Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why
Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright

It feels good (Is that reason enough for you)
It feels good (Is that reason enough for you)
It feels good (Is that reason enough for you)
It feels good (Is that reason enough for you)

Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why
Hold on tight wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright
Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why
Hold on tight wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright

Out of this one
I don't know how to get you out of this one
I don't know how to get you out of this one
I don't know how to get you out of this one
I don't know how to get you out of this one

Heaven Forbid by The Fray

END-12 THE ONES LAST YEAR AWARDS!

I'm doing these awards again this year, yes. I'll be telling you my favourite in several different categories and a runner up.. in other words 2 titles/people/whatever wins in each category! There's not really any order to the two in each category so both win equally.

BEST LIVE PERFORMANCE 2013

Looptropp Rockers at IOGT-NTOs Kongresser in Borås

It was heartpounding, it was awesome, it was amazing.

Loke Nyberg during NärCon in Linköping.

I actually saw Bruce Springsteen again this year. I don't know if it's because new is always new but I couldn't leave out Loke or Looptroop Rockers even though Springsteen was great. Anyway, he's got great songs and I loved the short time I got to see him.

BEST ALBUM 2013

”Om du vill vara med mig” by Melissa Horn

A lot of artists that I like released albums this year. Melissa was the only one that didn't dissapoint I think. Her songs are as good as ever! Drömmen om Alice is one of my favorites.

"Mitt hjärta är en bomb” by Looptroop Rockers

This just proves that Looptroop Rockers should do more in swedish, almost all of the songs are just amazing in my eyes.

BEST GAME 2013

The Last of Us

It was just an incredible experience; to me, it was both emotional and a blooming world. I loved the dialog and the two characters.

The Stanley Parable

What can I say? Incredible dialog and an incredible exploration of choice and games and choice in games.

BEST ANIME 2013

Hunter x Hunter

I really love this series, everything about it. The king have been playing gungi for much of the year and even that is really awesome.

Shingeki no Kyojin

It came out of nowhere, it is huge all of a sudden, it is a little overrated, it could've been so much more. But at least the first season is really worthwhile to watch.

BEST MOVIE 2013

Les Miserables

Again, I saw it this year and didn't get a chance to award it prizes so I'm doing it now. I don't know what to say but; I'm in love with this movie and every song!

The Hunger Games: Catching Fire

Iron Man 3 was good, the second Hobbit-movie was good but to me, the second Hunger Games movie captivated me most of all, I'm surprised by that fact but it is the truth.

Awards taken out from last year:

Many, I felt like narrowing it down.

If you happen to have any award that you feel I should’ve given out, it’s not too late yet! If anybody suggests something in the comments I could give out more awards in a later post next month or something. But you have to give me categories for me to give prizes in.

Alright, that’s it. And now a classic: the song of today:

The song of today:
You and I by Ingrid Michaelson

I first listened to Ingrid Michaelson know who she was this year. And I just know that she is great. This song is what made me discover her music and I can guarantee I listened to like all her songs after hearing it. It is that good. It is so cute, sweet and inocent, at the same time it makes quite casual references to having sex. I feel that it is charming and doesn't take things to levels that things don't need to be taken to, love and sex could be just that simple. Also, I like the dreaming nature to the rest of the song, it is naive and lovely in that way.

That's it, I hope you have a fantastic year ahead of you, I will try to make mine awesome.

Fourth New Years Post

This is the fourth New Years post, I haven't posted anything on this blog in a year and I don't mind. My blogs are for my own sake and I haven't felt like doing anything here. My blog in swedish is still used though. (oigenkanningshumor.blogspot.com). With that out of the way; I still like to sum up my year and I've done it here three times before so I will do it here again.

THE 40 QUESTIONS:

Just like I did the other years, I’ve answered 40 questions that I found at a page that doesn't exist anymore so I don't know who to give credit for them. Here are the questions:

1. What did you do in 2012 that you’d never done before?

I can't really think of anything.. Well I kinda hadn't cosplayed before and I only did it halfway this year too. Oh, I was out promoting UNF (Ungdomens nykterhetsförbund) too.

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

Didn't make any I think. I don't know if I will make any for next year either.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

I don't think so(?).

4. Did anyone close to you die?

No.

5. What countries did you visit?

I stayed at home.

6. What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?

My sanity? I want to know more for certain what I feel about things in my life and when I do figure stuff out I want to have more control. I want to be able to do schoolwork without breaking completely. I want to have goals, something to strive for, to know where I'm going. In short I think a little more stability in some areas is what I want.

7. What date from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

Sadly I think of the 6^th October. Maybe I remember the date because it's my sisters birthday but it really was something etched upon my memory. I had other terrible days, where I screamed to let off the burden of some news that was just to much to take and I also had fantastic days and a bittersweet farewell to UppCon. But the thing is.. I can't remember any of the dates. So what happened on my sisters birthday? Well I sat up all night, all weekend actually... and argued with my friends... over the most stupid shit (quite frankly) ever... it was mostly miscommunication on everybodys part too, nobody really meant what the others interpreted their words as. And I started it. It was my fault. And the three people I see most of all were involved, one of them mostly arguing on my side and the two others on the other. It actually upset me more than or equal to anything else this year. My family had major problems this year, I'm not going to go into detail but at times I don't feel this family works right now. And still this date is right up there with that. To be angry is so much easier than to be hurt and sad. And I find myself being able to just be pissed at my family.. so that is easier to deal with. I actually went back and looked just so that I did have the date correct.. and just seeing that gave me a really bad feeling in my stomach. One or two days after my sisters birthday she came into my room and asked what was up because I had cried so loudly that she heard it from her room. I don't know if that has happened before. Oh well, there you have it. I am really glad that that just kind of ended. It was such unnecessary pain for everybody involved. And I feel stupid for remembering that date over all of the awesome and fun ones from this year. But I won't lie and make something up about another date.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

I don't really know. I was really proud when I managed to get through a study-pace of 150% so maybe that?

9. What was your biggest failure?

Maybe I failed at the same time, I managed to get completely worn out and broken from school after that ”achievement”... Maybe that.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

No, if you don't count the thing in 9.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

Maybe Naruto Shippuden: Ultimate Ninja Storm Generations actually, it served to entertain me AND my friends a lot of fun nights. If I think of it that way it was an awesome buy.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

Well there are three people in my life that gave me a home when I felt like mine was crumbling around me. Since those three people are the only ones I told what happened too I don't want to be too blunt about it here either but I hope you know who you are and how deeply I appreciate your help and friendship even when I was in an extremely unpleasant situation.

Then there are all the other friends in my life actually, I don't really see a point to anything beyond the nights and weekends we've spent doing fun stuff together so thanks every friend in my life for giving me purpose and having a great time together with me.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

Well... once again, there is a clear answer or two that relates to what I've said earlier that I'm not going to tell, just to protect all the people involved.

14. Where did most of your money go?

Transportation to school.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

I guess I should say Naruto Shippuden: Ultimate Ninja Storm 3 because I've been following news for that game a little too eagerly. I can't really think of anything that I'd really classify as excitement in the year though.. other than maybe those small fun things I've done with my friends, like fighting game weekends and sleepovers and Thursdays and so on.

16. What song will always remind you of 2012?

Euphoria by Loreen maybe? Chicago by Tom Waits maybe? First Day of My Life by Bright Eyes maybe? One was our winner in Eurovision song contest and also everywhere and also an artist that made an overall good impression on me as a person and made me proud. The other was with me when I was in shock and I screamed more or less in sync with the lyrics. The third one is just playing on repeat for me the last month or two. It's a really really good song that has become the soundtrack to many walks and bus rides.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

I. happier or sadder?

Both I think. Over the year I think I've regained emotion on a larger scale, I was kind of locked up before, still am in many ways only not as much. And as a consequence I've gotten a bit more happy during happy times and the same thing applies to sadness.

II. thinner or fatter?

The same? I actually got thinner running every weekday during the first half of the year and then during the second I got fatter again because my leg caused me to stop running and then it was hard to begin again.

III. richer or poorer?

Not that much of a difference, still don't have that much money.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Once again more creative stuff.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Sitting around watching Youtube-videos.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

Well I've celebrated ahead of time a little with some friends and on Christmas I was with my family and my cousins, it was fun. After New Year I'll meet up with my friends to exchange gifts, that will be awesome :)!

21. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?

I will be at Kenny’s, for our yearly LAN-party and the gaming tournament we created three years ago, HN. (Honor of the Nerds), I will enjoy myself :D.

22. Did you fall in love in 2012?

No, I have been wondering about my feelings towards a lot of people around me though. I can't say I've come to all that many conclusions.

23. How many one-night stands?

0

24. What was your favorite TV program?

Så mycket bättre, season 3 maybe. I can't say I liked it quite as much as the two first seasons I think.. but I still liked it alot.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

Yes.

26. What was the best book you read?

Eh was it this year that I finally got to read Bridge to Terabithia? Yeah I think it was. Soo that one I think. I just love that book and the movie. But I also really liked things in school (literature student).. like Låt den rätte komma in (Let the Right One In).

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

First Day of My Life by Bright Eyes maybe?

28. What did you want and got?

I wanted to keep my friends and keep doing things with them.. and I did!

29. What did you want and not get?

Sanity. In me and in the world.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?

Impossible to say. It's either Avengers or it's The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 21. I had one awesome birthday party with a whole lot of my friends, I won't forget that.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

If Springsteen and NärCon wasn't on the same weekend. If school didn't totally trash my spirit. If the bad stuff didn't happen.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 202?

”I hope people see me and not my exterior.. oh wait I'm supposed to wear clothes? Well ok, I'll do that then.”

34. What kept you sane?

My friends, I can't thank them enough. All of them because they made my life so much more fun and happy and some of them for being there when I needed them.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Seriously just no.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

I don't really know, there was alot about equality in foreign countries and my own, there was a presidential election in USA and there were just stupid people on facebook that just tired me out before they even began.

37. Who did you miss?

I missed people that wasn't able to join in on the fun times because of work and things like that. Also things like moving to a whole other city far away. This includes at least three different friends throughout the year.

38. Who was the best new person you met?

Probably our new members in UNF Silvernykter actually, they inspire me to keep trying to do everything I can to make our city more fun with better things to do than getting drunk.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012:

I will not, I'm not god with generalizations.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Like earlier years I will try to use ”only” 5 songs.

I was raised out of steel here in the swamps of Jersey, some misty years ago
Through the mud and the beer, and the blood and the cheers, I've seen champions come and go
So if you got the guts mister, yeah, if you got the balls
If you think it's your time, then step to the line, and bring on your wrecking ball

Bring on your wrecking ball
Bring on your wrecking ball
Come on and take your best shot, let me see what you got
Bring on your wrecking ball

Now my home's here in these meadowlands where mosquitoes grow big as airplanes
Here where the blood is spilled, the arena's filled, and giants played their games
So raise up your glasses and let me hear your voices call
Because tonight all the dead are here, so bring on your wrecking ball

Bring on your wrecking ball
Bring on your wrecking ball
Come on and take your best shot, let me see what you got
Bring on your wrecking ball

One, two, a one two three four!

Yeah! Hey!

Yeah, we know that come tomorrow, none of this will be here
So hold tight on your anger, you hold tight on your anger
Hold tight to your anger, don't fall to your fears

Now when all this steel and these stories, they drift away to rust
And all our youth and beauty, it's been given to the dust
When the game has been decided and we're burning down the clock
And all our little victories and glories have turned into parking lots
When your best hopes and desires are scattered through the wind
And hard times come, and hard times go
And hard times come, and hard times go
And hard times come, and hard times go
And hard times come, and hard times go
And hard times come, and hard times go
Yeah just to come again

Bring on your wrecking ball
Bring on your wrecking ball
Come on and take your best shot, let me see what you got
Bring on your wrecking ball
Bring on your wrecking ball (bring on your wrecking ball)
Bring on your wrecking ball (bring on your wrecking ball)
Come on and take your best shot, let me see what you got
Bring on your wrecking ball

One, two, a one two three four!
(Whoa whoa whoa-whoa)
(Whoa whoa-whoa)
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(Whoa whoa-whoa) bring on your wrecking ball
(Whoa whoa whoa-whoa) bring on your wrecking ball
(Whoa whoa-whoa)
(Whoa whoa-whoa)
(Whoa whoa-whoa)

Wrecking Ball by Bruce Springsteen

Att alltid ta tillbaks
eller att vara utan känslor är väl ändå samma sak
du lyder det du har
du slukar mina dagar och plockar upp det jag förstör

Jag ljuger om allt
jag kastar mina tankar ingenstans och överallt
vi var aldrig överens
du vill veta vad jag känner men ingenting känns

Och jag drömmer drömmar om att alla försvinner
en efter en
min äldsta bror och min bästa vän
och alla dem som jag inte har än

En hand över min
en obehaglig väntan i vägen för din
men jag har mina skäl
jag låter saker rinna ut så att jag slipper ta farväl

Nu ringer det igen
jag lever med en sanning och du kan inte tävla med den
jag vet inte vem hon är
men det måste finnas nån där ute som du kan vara med

Jag drömmer drömmar om att alla försvinner
en efter en
min äldsta bror och min bästa vän
och alla dem som jag inte har än

Jag drömmer drömmar om att alla försvinner
en efter en
min äldsta bror och min bästa vän
och alla dem som jag inte har än

Mardrömmar by Melissa Horn

I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you

Because I knew you

I have been changed for good

And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for

But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share

And none of it seems to matter anymore

Like a comet pulled from orbit [Like a ship blown from its mooring]
As it passes a sun [By a wind off the sea]
Like a stream that meets a boulder [Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood]
Halfway through the wood

Who can say if I've been
Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better

And because I knew you...

Because I knew you...

Because I knew you...
I have been changed for good.

For Good from Wicked

Every day day and every night night
I am gonna fight fight fight to win
(We’re kickin’ ass now)
Every day day and every night night
I am gonna fight fight fight to win
(We bring the house down)
Every day day and every night night
I am gonna fight fight fight to win
(We crush our enemies)
Every day day and every night night
I am gonna fight fight to win
(We bring ’em to their knees)

I step in the arena
I get my knuckles crackin’
I try to keep it clean
But who knows what could happen
I see a long row, an ensemble
Of the best fighters from a combo of consoles

First came Ryu, a guy who cries (HADOUKEN!)
As he tries to fight you
I checked the dude in his chest
Just before I shocked Blanka
When I kicked the fool directly in his testicles
Sub-Zero felt the need to freeze me
Exsqueeze me?
That’s cheesy
His ass left bleeding
I Falcon Punched Captain Falcon
Just as I Super Smashed Mario up in his mustache
Panda gets up in my face and I’m thinking
That I’mma have to beat him
’til he’s pleadin’ for extinction
Leavin’ knuckle imprints on his eyelids
I ain’t sayin’ video games make me violent
But..

Every day day and every night night
I am gonna fight fight fight to win
(We’re kickin’ ass now)
Every day day and every night night
I am gonna fight fight fight to win
(We bring the house down)
Every day day and every night night
I am gonna fight fight fight to win
(We crush our enemies)
Every day day and every night night
I am gonna fight fight to win
(We bring ’em to their knees)

C-c-c-c-combo breaker!
Awww. I think I’m hit bad
Life bar almost depleted

Tag and I’m glad that you passed it to me
Which one of the cowards
Wanna bring the beef?
If you wanna harm me, better bring an army
Step in my way and I’m smashing your feet
Throw the knife. Pass it to me
I’mma slash Jin down to the white meat
Then I’m calling out Ken
(Let’s take it to the streets)
Then I’m breaking his back and I’m breaking his teeth
And my Chun-Li kick gotcha taking a seat
Kasumi did I catch you at a bad time?
You can try to run but your ass mine
FLATLINE!
Now that her ass is dying over there
I’m goin’ ater Kuma the Bear
Beat ya ’till you look like Yogi the Bear
Using my bare hands holding your hair
Where Scorpion at?
I’mma cause him harm
Death to Ayane though she a bomb
Hit her with a bomb
Whole lot of bombs
Bombs she the bomb
Bomb bomb bomb bomb
Heihachi came from Tekken trying to step into the game
But I couldn’t pronouce his name
So I put my weapon through his chest frame
Ripped out Lizardman’s tongue
He’s dumb with silence
And I ain’t saying video games make me violent
But..

Every day day and every night night
I am gonna fight fight fight to win
(We’re kickin’ ass now)
Every day day and every night night
I am gonna fight fight fight to win
(We bring the house down)
Every day day and every night night
I am gonna fight fight fight to win
(We crush our enemies)
Every day day and every night night
I am gonna fight fight to win
(We bring em’ to their knees)

Ain’t nothing like whippin’ your ass (whippin’ your ass)
‘Cause I love whippin’ your ass (I love ass)
Ain’t nothing like whippin’ your ass (whippin’ your ass)
‘Cause I love whippin’ your…

I step back to the arena bringin’ death
Who doubted me?
I’m ripping out Nightmare’s spine (FATALITY!)
The crowd cheers, shocked then silent
I ain’t sayin’ video games make me violent
But..

Every day day and every night night
I am gonna fight fight fight to win
(We’re using cheat codes)
Every day day and every night night
I am gonna fight fight fight to win
(Our thumbs are bleeding now!)
Every day day and every night night
I am gonna fight fight fight to win
(We’re stuck up in our rooms!)
Every day day and every night night
I am gonna fight fight to win
(We never Rage Quit!)

Fight to Win by Your Favorite Martian feat. DeStorm

Du ska få se det kommer ordna sig var vad de sa till mig. Du ska få se att allt blir bra.

Jag var pissförbannad 14 år med Getta Grips och tovigt hår. Oresonlig, obstinat med strupen full av hat. Då var min utstötthet en självklarhet och då var våld min vardags mat.

Och de sa: Du provocerar när du inte passar in. Dels är skulden faktiskt din.

Klart du ska slippa slåss men om du var som oss vore det lättare förstås. Ja, om du slutar sticka ut ska du få se att allting ordnar sig till slut.

Men en novembernatt minns jag hur jag satt på småstadskyrkans tak. Hösten hosta hes och hårt.

Jag blicka ut på stad och kyrkogård. Där såg jag död men inget liv, nej ur mitt perspektiv märktes ingen skillnad av emellan stad och grav. Och jag sa:

Ni kan titta snett och ni kan titta ner. Men jag ska aldrig bli som er.

Jag har ett annat sätt att leva. Jag har ett annat ideal. En av de kantstötta och skeva. Men det är varje fall mitt eget val.

Jag föddes -77, är kanske vuxen nu ifall det spelar någon roll. Snart en medelålders man, men på sätt och vis så är jag likadan.

Ingenting har ordnat sig för jag har vägrat ordna mig. Men från 14 år till denna dag har jag mött många fler som jag.

Och du vars röst aldrig blir hörd. Punkare eller rollspels nörd, häxa eller hednadotter, regnhund, goth och globetrotter.

Vi har en stor funktion i det normalas definition. Allting vanligt innebär, e att va allt vi inte är. Stolta syster. Kom ihåg min tappre bror. Vi är långt flera än du tror.

Som har ett annat sätt att leva. Som har ett annat ideal. Vi är de kantstötta och skeva. Men det är i varje fall fall vårt eget val. Låt någon annan vara normal, ren och lycklig sund och smal. Vi ska vara deras freaks och original.

Vi har ett annat sätt att leva. Vi har ett annat ideal. Vi är de kantstötta och skeva, men det är vårt eget val.

Freaks och original by Loke Nyberg

END-12 THE ONES LAST YEAR AWARDS!

I'm doing these awards again this year, yes. I'll be telling you my favourite in several different categories and a runner up.. in other words 2 titles/people/whatever wins in each category! There's not really any order to the two in each category so both win equally.

BEST LIVE PERFORMANCE 2012

Emil Jensen at Klubb Lovisa in Västerås: I love his songs and his poems and helping a little with arranging the event was definetly an extra spice.

Thomas Järvheden in Västerås: Sadly; I almost didn't see more than Emil live this year that I can think of. I did see Thomas Järvheden though and that was quite funny. His funny songs were ok and his serious ones too. I thought the best parts were his stand-up between. I went with my family and they seemed to enjoy themselves so that was good.

BEST ALBUM 2012

”Wrecking Ball” by Bruce Springsteen: I'm a bit of a Springsteen fan and in my opinion this is the best album from him since Devils and Dust and I say that even though I did like both Magic and Working on a Dream. Both Death to My Hometown and Wrecking Ball were instant favorites and both This Depression and Rocky Ground are really powerful. In short I like the sound and lyrics.

"Till mina älskade och älskare” by Linnea Henriksson: I realised that I gave her an award the two years before this one. But I have to give this award too because it is the other album that deserves this this year. Väldigt kär/Obegripligt ensam was awesome when I heard it the first time but I was worried that it was just that one song that was going to be great but I found out I didn't have to worry. Almost all of the songs on the album are really great; Alice, Lyckligare nu, Mitt rum i ditt hjärta and so on. I really like it.

BEST SONG 2012

Gotta be honest, for some reason I can't remember much of what music has been like from this entire year. It feels like everything else got clouded by Gotye and Gangnam style and Call Me Maybe and such songs. Maybe it's just me not listening as much to the really new stuff too. The awards is going to go to songs I've listened to much quite recently.

Jag och min far by Magnus Uggla: A great version of a song I already liked in Olle Ljungströms original version. Uggla just takes the concept and goes (what I can only assume is) very personal with it and it is about the most touching song I've heard in a long time. It is perfect in many ways. Great lyrics and it is sung with such feeling that I can't help but love it.

Bitch Bad by Lupe Fiasco: Just in general I want to give this award to Lupe, I think he's brilliant. Words I Never Said have been playing frequently in my headphones. Lupe and rappers like him is why I listen to rap, to me; it's the good side of rap. And this song is (like many of his other songs) actually bringing up an issue hip hop and rap of the other kind help worsen. It is cleverly written and brings up one way things could happen with the cultural image put forth. Now, it is not a clinic study that goes over everything in detail, you can't fit that in a song but what it is is a stiking image that gives people a gist of the problem. The disclaimer-rhymer line is not that good but overall the lyrics are brilliant and the song is extremely catchy which is also a plus. I'll just end it here or I could go on for too long, in short; love the song, listen to it if you haven't already.

BEST MUSICIAN 2012

Bruce Springsteen: he released an album that I really like, he supported Obama in his campaign (watching him after he had won and then hearing a Springsteen-song start right after he was finished speaking was powerful) and my sister was extremely moved by his concert here in Sweden, I wish I could've been there. As always; this award has to go out to artists that have made an impression on me during the year and that can't only be about the music. (Though of course that has to be there too).

Loreen: she won the Eurovision Song Contest with a song I really like and she also proved herself to be a person I can look up to, I can't say that about the majority of celebrities. She doesn't drink and she is highly engaged in social issues in the world. Plus I've still not really tired of the song which says ALOT for a song that is played sooo regularly.

BEST GAME 2012

I really had to think about this one, I had 4 games I considered and I finally excluded Naruto Shippuden: Ultimate Ninja Storm Generations because I couldn't justify it as best over the others, no matter how much fun I had with it, it felt like Storm 2 with characters from 1 thrown in. I know a bit was done to make the combat smoother but in my opinion there was still not enough new stuff in it. And for the same reason I had to exclude Soul Calibur V too, the fighting-system is the slickest one yet and I love the game for that and the character creator is amazing, me and my friends have made the most amazing characters ever. But I could only choose two in the end.

Playstation All-stars Battle Royale: There's still much I want to ask of this game. The roster is not as complete as I would have wanted. There are some hick-ups with the combat, the supers feel quite unevenly balanced for example. But with that said; I think it's really really fun to play, in the beginning I thought this game could only be fun playing it with friends but I've actually begun to play it quite a bit online now and that is actually fun too.

Dead or Alive 5: I... wouldn't have thought that I would think of a DoA game as the best game of the year but DoA5 made me have to reconsider that. My friend bought it and we were both surprised at how solid it was as a fighting game and we've had some of the most intense fights this year playing this game. I love it.

BEST ANIME 2012

Hunter x Hunter: It was sometime this year I suddenly realized that for some weeks when I woke up sunday morning and two new episodes of animé had come out; I actually was more excited for Hunter x Hunter than One Piece. And One Piece generally is my favorite manga/animé, period. So that really said something. This animé really entertained me alot, Hisoka is a delicious character and the spiders were amazing, I really liked that they could still feel as powerful as they were supposed to be, that rarelly happens in fiction for real.

Naruto Shippuden: This was a very, very good year for the Naruto animé, for a long time there were no fillers, of course some of the pacing still was poorly executed (Choujis fight with Asuma could have been much shorter for example) but overall it was awesome having so much canon content. And then... when fillers started, the seven swordsmen-fillers were something I had asked for because I felt it was rushed in the manga... and they actually executed it pretty well. But that was not the big shocker, the big thing was chikara. It's a filler-arc... that is actually good... that I actually want to see more of... I'm amazed that Naruto actually managed to do that.

Animés that didn’t make it and why:
Bleach: It ended and in a pretty sudden and half-assed way, just the way to go for the series. I read the manga now.
One Piece: Like I said, I love One Piece... but most of the year was spent on an arc that was ok but not amazing and it really felt like it was dragged out for too long.
Fairy Tail: It was ok, it had fillers that I thought was ok actually and well it was alright overall. Not nearly winning-this-award-material though. I think this was the year that had the stupid timeskip, right? Well that was stupid.

Naruto SD (Rock Lee): This was fun watching but I didn't feel I had to rush to see it like the other ones.

BEST YOUTUBE CHANNEL 2012

Game Grumps: Two of my favorite content creators from the internet joins up and plays games to a hilarious result? Count me in!

Farfromsubtle: I watch this show too much, I really love it and I watch every game that I'm the least bit interested in, they've got a set up like no other show and they feel more human than most people, they almost become like family, I love to hate Fraser when he's stupid or fails at something in a video game but I also see the nice sides in him and the same sort of things can be said for all five people on the show.

BEST WEBSITE 2012

Kanzenshuu.com and Saiyanisland.com

Both are basically news-sites for animé, Kanzenshuu is only Dragon Ball... I've come to embrace the huge Dragon Ball-nerd in me again this year and Kanzenshuu really helped me along with that. I've visited Saiyanisland more than most sites this year, mostly to keep myself up-to-date with news on Naruto Shippuden: Ultimate Ninja Storm 3 which I'm really excited about!

BEST FICTIONAL CHARACTER 2012

Hisoka: From Hunter x Hunter, Hisoka has been deliciously maleficent and a joy to watch, I get chills just thinking about him, at times he can creap me out in a way that I like and he's weird and kind of twisted, that's always a plus, even seeming to get pleasure out of watching the main character grow, he is really entertaining.

Gollum: I just have to give it to him, the whole scene in The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey with him and Bilbo is wonderfully executed and he is just about the right amount of vunerable and manages to be really intimidating at the same time, making the danger feel real. The performance of the actor is brilliant and so is the dialogue and everything about the character.

BEST FILM 2012

The Avengers: I couldn't believe that this movie actually turned out to be as good as it is. I went in with low expectations because I love to watch superhero movies and I couldn't really see how pulling together The Avengers was going to work, I was saying to myself that I will enjoy it for the sillyness that it probably will be. But oh was I in for a surprise. I actually own this movie on BluRay now and I've seen it 4 times, I'm planning on seeing it much more. I just love it. Why do I love it? Well the action is good and the dialogue is phenomenal, the characters are awesome in and of themselves but they are masterfully portrayed here, making me like them even more. To me it's like the perfect superhero action movie.

The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey: No film manages to build atmosphere like this one does, it was long but I didn't feel like anything dragged really, it felt more like it took it's time with the characters so that I felt I could get to know them a bit, get to know the world a bit. Because who wouldn't want to spend a lot of time in that world honestly? And I think the film had a very good mix too, everything from funny moments to serious battles and all things you can think of in the middle of that scale. The actors were phenomenal too, I like how Bilbo still managed to feel like Bilbo, characteristics I've picked up on in the older Bilbo was still there in this performance of a younger version, Gandalf was amusing and the dwarfs were nicely done and I've already talked about Gollum. I really really liked it.

BEST EXPERIENCE 2012

UppCon: I said goodbye to what in my mind is THE convention, it's the first one I went to, it's the one I've been to the most times and I kind of grew up with it. All my love to the convention, I will never forget it. This year was everything I could've hoped for for a finish too, almost all of the people that I've been there with over the years were there and the shopping was awesome and the cosplay-contest too and it was just... pure joy non-stop. I can't express just how grateful I am to the convention and to the people with me who helped make the experience what it was.

And I can't choose anything over the other for the second thing I want to give an award. Sooo... here's a short list of things that deserve it equally; Going to the cinema a bunch (I have never watched as many movies in a year in the cinemas as I did this one and I always went with friends and it was great!), Fighting game weekends (we started realizing that we should have whole days or more dedicated to JUST fighting games... 'cause we love them, they're a great way to socialize, also just hanging out with Kenny and maybe other people playing fighting games was just as fun :D!), Thursdays (getting together and watching Naruto and just hanging out once every week is just about one of the most awesome things in my life), Summer camp (I hadn't done it before and it really was an adventure, I've got many fond memories, many of times when things went wrong and we were facing some adversities but that just made our little group bond stronger), The birthdays of people (especially mine because.. ALL the people I invited are people I really want to be there and almost all of them came and it was just a blurr of happy and so on) and NärCon (The sole reason I'm not as devastated as I could be that UppCon is gone). I've probably missed a lot but I'm just greatful for getting to live and getting to do that in the presence of people I absolutely love so if you've spent time with me this year, you and the things we did are just as much a part of this award as all the things listed. No matter if we sat and talked seriously about things so that the time flew by or if we celebrated that the end of the world probably wasn't going to happen or if we had a ”fika” or whatever. I luv'd it. So thank you. All of you.

Awards taken out from last year:

BEST VIDEO GAME CONSOLE: I would've just picked the same two ones.

BEST LYRICS: Because I didn't feel I had to make the distinction this year, most music I think is good is based on the lyrics so it went into the best song award, also I didn't feel as with the times with the music this year so I didn't have as much to say about it.

If you happen to have any award that you feel I should’ve given out, it’s not too late yet! If anybody suggests something in the comments I could give out more awards in a later post next month or something. But you have to give me categories for me to give prizes in.

Alright, that’s it. And now a classic in this blog: the song of today:

The song of today:
First Day of My Life by Bright Eyes

I've been listening to this song so much this year, there's something so absolutely charming and hopeful with it. I know that it feels a little exaggerated, like many songs do but isn't that what humans do? Exaggerate. And this song manages to get away with it anyway, it doesn't get annoying. I kind of fell in love with this song for a while xD.

Anyway, that's all folks, I hope you have a fantastic year ahead of you, I know I will try to make mine awesome.