Eight New Years post

This is the eight New Years post.

THE 40 QUESTIONS:

Just like I did the other years, I’ve answered 40 questions that I found on a page that doesn't exist anymore so I don't know who to give credit to for them. Here are the questions:

1. What did you do in 2016 that you’d never done before?

I led a course for UNF, I also did some work as part of the caucus for UNF nationally. I started taking care of myself as a part of me finding out I had diabetes.

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I don't have any.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

No, I don't think so.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

No.

5. What countries did you visit?

No other countries than my own. But I was all over it.

6. What would you like to have in 2017 that you lacked in 2016?

Peace and quiet. I'd like to hang out with my friends more.

7. What date from 2016 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

I'd say the day I found out I had diabetes or the day Pokémon Go came out, but I don't remember the specific dates.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

At least starting to take care of myself

9. What was your biggest failure?

Not managing my activites to allow for reduced stress, it was rather stressful.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

I was diagnosed with diabetes.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

I don't like buying stuff... but I think it was Pokémon-necklaces for two of my closest friends.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

My classmate, she went through so much but is still here and such a great person to speak and reason with.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

The one who didn't show up for birthdays or the tournament at new years (HN).

14. Where did most of your money go?

I think to school and travel there, however; my food costs must have gone up with having to eat.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Hanging out. Seriously. But HN is always fun, and a few movies had my hopes up. Oh, and getting to read some new Hunter X Hunter chapters! They were great!

16. What song will always remind you of 2016?

Ditt andetag by Ulrik Munther

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

I. happier or sadder?

Neither I think

II. thinner or fatter?

Fatter? Maybe? I don't really know how much I'd lost last year... but I've gained some weight since summer at least :)!

III. richer or poorer?

Richer.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Taking care. Of myself and others.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Nothing, I just feel I need more time, otherwise I'm doing some pretty awesome stuff.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

I don't really care for Christmas but I was at my cousin's and then I celebrated at home with my friends a couple of days later two, with a christmas-present-game!

21. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?

At home, competing in HN :)!

22. Did you fall in love in 2016?

Nope. But I do think the definition of love and especially in the form of “romantic love” is weird and loose.

23. How many one-night stands?

0

24. What was your favorite TV program?

Så mycket bättre, season 7.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

Donald Trump maybe? Other people just dissapoints me and makes me sad without earning the word hate.

26. What was the best book you read?

Maybe a children's book of some kind.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

I think this is the year that I got really, really into dodie!

28. What did you want and got?

Support

29. What did you want and not get?

Time and fun

30. What was your favorite film of this year?

I think I'd have to say Rogue One.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 25! That was awesome, I think we played some digital parlour games (Jackbox)

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Endless access to time.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2016?

I'm starting to get more of a sense of what I like, I think, but also don't care (Vegeta outfit because why not!?)

34. What kept you sane?

My closest friends.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Daisy Ridley I think. I mean I don't really fancy celebrities all that much... so her impression still lingers into this year.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

The Trumpening and Bernie Sanders.

37. Who did you miss?

My friends, I want to see them much more often.

38. Who was the best new person you met?

I don't know if I have anyone like that this year.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2016:

You need to care about you and your needs.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Like earlier years I will try to use ”only” 5 songs.

I den stora sorgens famn
finns små ögonblick av skratt
så som stjärnor tittar fram
ut ur evighetens natt
och i solens första strålar
flyger svalorna mot skyn
för att binda sköra trådar
tvinna trådar
till en tross
mellan oss..
så vi når varandra

i den hårda tidens brus
finns de skrik som ingen hör
allt försvinner i ett sus
som när vinden sakta dör
alla tårarna har torkat
till kristaller på min kind
jag har ropat allt jag orkat
allt jag orkat efter dig
hör du mig
kan vi nå varandra

i den långa vinterns spår
trampas frusna blommor ner
och där ensamheten går
biter kylan alltid mer
ändå har jag aldrig tvekat
mellan mörker eller ljus
för när månens skära bleknat
har allt pekat åt ditt håll
och från mitt håll
kan vi nå varandra

i den stora sorgens famn..

I den stora sorgens famn by Ted Gärdestad (I listen to a live version by Helen Sjöholm and Freddie Wadling quite often).

What a strange being you are, God knows where I would be
If you hadn't found me, sitting all alone in the dark
A dumb screenshot of youth
Watch how a cold broken teen
Will desperately lean on a superglued human of proof

What the hell would I be, without you
Brave face talk so lightly, hide the truth

'Cause I'm sick of losing soulmates, so where do we begin
I can finally see, you're as fucked up as me
So how do we win?
Yeah, I'm sick of losing soulmates, won't be alone again
I can finally see, you're as fucked up as me
So how do we win?

We will grow old as friends, I've promised that before
So what's one more?
In our grey-haired circle, waiting for the end
Time and hearts will wear us thin
So which path will you take, cause we both know a break
Does exactly what it says on the tin

What the hell would I be, without you
Brave face talk so lightly, hide the truth

'Cause I'm sick of losing soulmates, so where do we begin
I can finally see, you're as fucked up as me
So how do we win?
Yeah, I'm sick of losing soulmates, won't be alone again
I can finally see, you're as fucked up as me
So how do we win?

I won't take no for an answer (I won't take no for an answer)
I won't take no for an answer (I won't take no for an answer)
I won't take no (I won't take no)
I won't take no (I won't take no)

'Cause I'm sick of losing soulmates, so where do we begin
I can finally see, you're as fucked up as me
So how do we win?
Yeah, I'm sick of losing soulmates, won't be alone again
I can finally see, you're as fucked up as me
So how do we win?

Sick of losing soulmates by dodie
När du inte orkar orkar jag för dig
När du slutat oh hoppas jadå hoppas jag för dig
Jag upprättar dig kära när du faller omkull
När du inte tror mer ska jag tro för våran skull

När det känns tungt att leva är jag ditt hjärtats slag
När du knappt kan andas är jag ditt andetag ditt andetag

När mörkret mig omsluter
lyser du mina steg
Du stadig som en klippa
när jag tvekar och är feg
Och du är allt jag bett om
i början och ett slut
Och när jag har gått vilse
jadå är du vägen ut

När det känns tungt oh leva
är du mitt hjärtats slag
När jag knappt kan andas
är du mitt andetag

Låt det komma som ska komma
låt det bli som allt ska bli
Jag är bunden till ditt hjärta
lik en fånge som släpps fri
Det går knappt att fatta
att du och jag är vi
Låt det komma som ska komma
låt det bli som allt ska bli

När det känns tungt oh leva
är du mitt hjärtats slag
När du knappt kan andas
är jag ditt andetag
Ditt andetag
Ditt andetag
Ditt andetag

Ditt andetag by Ulrik Munther

I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone
I recommend walking around naked in your living room
Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill)
It feels so good (swimming in your stomach)
Wait until the dust settles

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

I recommend biting off more then you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
Feel free
Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind)
Hold it up (to the rays)
You wait and see when the smoke clears

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

Wear it out (the way a three-year-old would do)
Melt it down (you're gonna have to eventually anyway)
The fire trucks are coming up around the bend

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

You grieve you learn
You choke you learn
You laugh you learn
You choose you learn
You pray you learn
You ask you learn
You live you learn

You live, you learn by Alanis Morisette

Det här e ingen hjältesaga inte legendariskt
Inte kriminellt men inte heller något lagligt
Ingen komedi men inte helt o hållet tragiskt
Ingen promenad i parken eller ett safari

Jag både strävar efter detta o vill inte ens ta i
Den sjukaste resan jag tvingats delta i
Bland änlgar o demoner men det e fantamej inte Hollywood
I verkligheten flaxar tiden snabbare än en kolibri

I den massproducerade jakten på life quality
O vilddjur i koppel som järnhanden håller i
Flocken e kollektiv inga soloseglare
Kan överleva regelverket stegen räknas mer än det

Jag tar ormen vid svansen o gör det till en dans men
Ingen bär en krona utan törnarna i kransen
Om skiten e glassen o lyckan e strössel
Har gnistan i handen o tricksen i rösten

O siktar med tanken har pickan vid höften
O blicken e blank men har trycket i bröstet
Blir viskad till sans som lyktor i mörkret
Mycket vatten har runnit men inte stillat min törst än

Har nog hört den förut men inte lyssnat förrän nu
För mina tankebanor är som autostrador utan slut
Det går in genom samma öra som det kommer ut
Mina satelliter kretsar kring krångliga beslut

Kan inte sluta leta leva utan att veta det
Finns ingen pausknapp på livets videospelare
Så jag dansar vidare som nån skjuter vid mina fötter
Jag har en vals på mej så jag steppar som fan

Det där med kärlek verkar mest vara hokus pokus
Det som en gång slog ut är nu en bruten krokus
Som en brustne dröm försvinner med djup olust
 O lämnar mej ständigt sökande med sjukt fokus

En sista hälsning som vita liljor för fria viljor
Vill ju vidga vyer som nya brillor
Så ta dina skrillor o pinna som att det brinner
Knacka dej på bröstplåten hoppas att du vinner

Ju fler sockerbitar gör drycken inte bitter
Eller slänger man hjärtat på ryggen som ett smycke
Eller vänd kinden o piska vinden när ensamheten sveper över dej som ryska vintern
För den som vill ha rosor tål taggiga stjälkar
Att det e på liv o död kan knappast vi hjälpa
Så kanske finns det nån som bedövar det pikanta
Så runt o runt rör vi oss o dansar dansar

Dansa by Timbuktu

END-16 THE ONES LAST YEAR AWARDS!

I'm doing these awards again this year, yes. I'll be telling you my favourite in several different categories and a runner up.. in other words 2 titles/people/whatever wins in each category! There's not really any order to the two in each category so both win equally.

BEST ALBUM 2016

”Intertwined” by dodie

I know it's an EP but still, dodies debut release must be celebrated! I feel such a kinship to dodie and her lyrics and her music is absolutely beautiful! <3 i="">

”Två naturliga armar” by Emil Jensen

Quite honestly, I haven't even listened to it yet but I can't seem to remember any other new release from anyone I like... and I just found this and is listening to it. So I'm sure he deserves it with his great lyrics and sense of combining it with music.

BEST GAME 2016

Pokémon Go

This game might not be the best game in many ways but it sure helped me get through tough times, it made me go out so much more and it certainly captured my attention more than it should have.

Pokémon Moon

This was the year of one of my favorite franchises ever and I love all the improvements made in this game, it's fantastic!

I should note that I haven't played or even watched The Last Guardian.

BEST ANIME 2016

One Piece

I think I only watch two animes at the moment... but One Piece does keep dragging me in every week.

Dragon Ball Super

It's fantastic, I love it!

BEST MOVIE 2016

Rogue One: A Star Wars Story

I definetly enjoyed this movie sooooo much, I love it!

Doctor Strange

I'm sorry but I only liked Captain America: Civil War moderately. Doctor Strange however, impressed me with it's visuals (something that I never let movies get points for usually!) and entertaining dialogue. The issues I have with the movie in things like casting in regards to cultural and representational issues and stuff were pretty big, however, I got most of that out of my system before even watching and I can't deny that I really liked it, and even saw it twice!

Awards taken out from last year:

None, this is a great, small selection.

If you happen to have any award that you feel I should’ve given out, it’s not too late yet! If anybody suggests something in the comments I could give out more awards later.

That was another year, and now I give you; the song of today:

The song of today:
Drug dealer by Macklemore

Touching and sometimes heartbreaking and awful to listen to, I love how honest and genuine this feels. It's also an issue I feel very strongly about so to see someone like Macklemore fight and articulate it this well brings me great satisfaction. It's also an awesome song that I play on repeat.

Hopefully see you next year, when I will tell you if ending my current assignments helped me become a better and more happy person.

Seventh New Years post

This is the seventh New Years post.

THE 40 QUESTIONS:

Just like every year, I’ve answered 40 questions that I found on a page that doesn't exist anymore so I don't know who to give credit to for them. Here are the questions:

1. What did you do in 2015 that you’d never done before?

I got chosen to be one of the people who leaves a suggestion about all the elections based on personality to the 2017 congress for UNF.

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

Nope, nope.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

I don't think so.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

No.

5. What countries did you visit?

I stayed here all year.

6. What would you like to have in 2016 that you lacked in 2015?

I would like my health to be better, I am trying to take care of myself now.

7. What date from 2015 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

I don't know really. Maybe the 16^th of december, because Star Wars. Or the 30^th of october because The Binding of Isaac Afterbirth released, I've played that game (Rebirth and Afterbirth together) over 700 hours this year.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Honestly I think it's making my december a pretty decent place to be, I have as much on my plate but isn't stressed out because of good planing.

9. What was your biggest failure?

I feel it is getting so little done with UNF locally, I feel it's my fault.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

I felt down mentally for several months, that was rough. I've lost a lot of weight too, I need to check up on that.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

Probably another christmas present for my dear friend (a figurine).

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

My friendship with the person from last year is still great. But I also want to celebrate my old textmessage-friend who moved to the US this summer, we still stay in touch and met to say goodbye during the summer too. Finally I'm really happy to have a classmate who seems to be on some of the same wavelenghts as me.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

Politics and the state of the world gets me really down at the moment, both at home and abroad, I wish my country would do more to help fugitives and I wish people like Donald Trump didn't exist and especially not anywhere near positions of power.

14. Where did most of your money go?

Schoolstuff, definetly. But I bought quite a bit of electronics and stuff like that that should be noted.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Super Smash Bros for Wii U DLC, Star Wars the Force Awakens.

16. What song will always remind you of 2015?

Maybe “Did You Give the World Some Love Today, Baby” by Doris, for about a month I sent a message to one person in my life and it was all kind of inspired by this song.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

I. happier or sadder?

I'm happier because I think I was stressed out last year.

II. thinner or fatter?

I'm much thinner, to the point that it worries me.

III. richer or poorer?

Monetarily poorer but you always get richer with experience.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

I wish I would've hit up my friends to hang out a little more.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Procrastinating.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

With family and with friends, two seperate occations.

21. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?

At home actually, we moved the location of HN to my home so ten people are going to come here and play videogames to compete against eachother, it will be fantastic!

22. Did you fall in love in 2015?

No.

23. How many one-night stands?

0

24. What was your favorite TV program?

Probably Jessica Jones. Maybe Agent Carter. The other Marvel shows were brilliant too.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

Donald Trump?

26. What was the best book you read?

I kind of only read one proper book for myself. And I got through half of it, so it has to be Bruce I think, by Peter Ames Carlin.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Allan Edwalls music maybe, Beatrice Eli? Miriam Bryant? Rediscovering Marit Larsen?

28. What did you want and got?

I don't know, I don't think I asked for big things, so I think I got the small things I wanted.

29. What did you want and not get?

Some of my relationships on more steady ground.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?

Star Wars: The Force Awakens

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 24. I didn't celebrate all that much.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Basic income.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2015?

I actually tried to look a little more like I wanted to look, I felt good with myself this year.

34. What kept you sane?

Unfortunately just doing stuff all the time, not thinking too much.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Ok so yeah, Daisy Ridley swept in and stole the attention from people like Jennifer Lawrence, Emma Watson and Emma Stone.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

The refugee-situation.

37. Who did you miss?

I don't really know if I missed someone for the entire year or even longer periods of time.

38. Who was the best new person you met?

Again some people through UNF and I really got to know a classmate too.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2015:

Take care of yourself in order to take care of others.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Like earlier years I will try to use ”only” 5 songs.

Så var det med sommaren

Och tjong då var det höst igen

Med samma gamla trötta attribut

Det är inget nytt att det blir höst

Men inte heller någon tröst

Att veta att man har mått såhär förut

Jag drar halsduken allt hårdare runtom min hesa hals

Tills jag plötsligt inser att jag knappt kan andas alls

Det är väl inte det att något gör mig ledsen

Det är väl mera det att inget gör mig glad

Var god tag plats på nedstämdhetsexpressen

Enkelresa emot Melankolia stad

Visst borde jag ta mig i kragen

Leva ut och fånga dagen

Festa till och prova bungie-jump

Vara här och nu och mitt i livet

Men själva initiativet

Sitter märkligt fast som i en kramp

Så jag tror det att blir jag och TV:n även denna kväll

Det känns förövrigt ganska skevt att gråta i en karusell

Blir mest beklämd utav upplevelsestressen

Visst vill jag vara med om, men vet inte vad

Så här kommer jag med nedstämdhetsexpressen

I hundrafemtio knyck mot Melankolia stad

Du säger att tröttheten mitt hjärta rymmer

Ja, just den typen av bekymmer

Lider många människor av idag

Men du har svårare för att beskriva

Vad som är det positiva

Med att det finns fler som mår som jag

För jag skiter i om jag är en av hundratusental

Det gör ju inte mindre ont bara för att smärtan är normal

Själva omtanken ökar bara pressen

Det smakar skuld om varje kopp med varm choklad

Man har en egen vagn på nedstämdhetsexpressen

Man åker ensam emot Melankolia stad

Du säger att du saknar mig

Jag saknar saknaden i sig

Hur vackert, hur fult allting var

Och när allting kommer ikring

Är ju allting bättre än ingenting

Men ingenting är allting jag har kvar

Nu känner jag hur tåget saktar av och stannar till

Och jag reser långsamt på mig, det är väl inte att jag vill

Men vi är framme vid den slutliga adressen

Dags att ta plats i skuggfigurernas parad

Ändhållplats för nedstämdhetsexpressen

Vi är framme i Melankolia stad

Här går jag genom gråa gränder

Över askbeströdda stränder

Tunga steg i stillastånden höst

Genom tjock och klibbig dimma

Var minut känns som en timma

När jag plötsligt minns det sista av din röst

Du sa det här är inget avsked för när du väl kommer dit

Ja då kommer du att minnas, du är bara på visit

Jag vet ditt hjärta är så tungt att det vill fly ditt bröst

Och just nu är det kanske ingen lindring eller tröst

Men jag finns kvar på andra sidan av processen

Och du skall återvända som du alltid gjort

Det går returresor med nedstämdhetsexpressen

Dem går stadigt, men inte lika fort

Dem går stadigt, men inte lika fort

Melankolia stad by Loke

When you feel like a story, without its last page
Feel like the morning, too scared to break
Lean on me
Lean on me

When you feel like goodbye on the tip of your tongue
You’re pulling the weight of the world on your own
Lean on me
Lean on me, Lisa

Like a tree, like a rock, like a tall mountaintop
Like a dream, like a promise, a sunny memory
Like a truth, like a song, a place you call home
Lean on me, Lisa

When you’re acting winter, waiting for spring
When both feet are anchors, you can’t find your wings
Lean on me
Lean on me, Lisa

Like a tree, like a rock, like a tall mountaintop
Like a dream, like a promise, a sunny memory
Like a truth, like a song, a place you call home

When you’re a ship lost at sea
When you drift away from me
Lean on me, Lisa
Lean on me, Lisa

Like a tree, like a rock, like a tall mountaintop
Like a dream, like a promise, a sunny memory
Like a truth, like a song, a place you call home
Lean on me, Lisa

Lean on me, Lisa by Marit Larsen
Jag gick upp klockan två idag
det var samma sak igår
du hade ringt mig nån gång när jag sov
säkert för att fråga hur det går

jag åt frukost nån gång efter tre
sen blev jag trött av det
lade mig på soffan och vilade en stund
sen ångrade jag det

alla har nånting som dom bryr sig om
och jag bryr mig om dig
och fastän jag vet bättre känns det som
att jag inte har nånting att ge dig

dom flesta jag känner har ett jobb som du
du är där nu
och jag har väntat hela långa dan
på att du ska komma hem
och om du inte kommer snart
går jag och lägger mig igen

du kommer hem och jag ser att du är trött
men jag måste prata med dig
och mitt i det viktiga
så har du somnat ifrån mig

jag är vaken hela natten inatt
det var samma sak igår
jag börjar bli orolig över att
du inte vet hur jag mår

livet går en för fort förbi
förstår inte hur
när jag blir stor vill jag inte bli
den jag är nu

jag är vaken hela natten inatt
det blir likadant imorn
först när det är kolsvart
ser jag vad jag drömmer om

det jag säger att jag gör
det gör jag inte ens
så vad är det jag gör
jag skriver ner alla tankar jag har
för då ser dom bättre ut
jag beskrev det här som en helt vanlig dag
skönt att den snart är slutden snart är slutEn helt vanlig dag by Melissa Horn

Kan låta cynisk
Min filosofi
Försöker ändra min stil
På nåt sätt bromsa mitt driv
Jag hustlar cash
Och jag gör det med stil
Men jag jobbar med mig själv
Försöker ändra mitt liv
Jag måste bort härifrån
Det är inte sunt
Samma gamla snack
Samtalsämnen går runt
Ibland jag tänker tillbaks
På min barndom tedde sig
Fick en moral
Som jag tror kan ha räddat mig
Solidaritet är det enda jag vet
Både tänker och ser på det sättet allt mer
Miljön den blir hårdare
Terrängen blir svåtare
Vi jagar efter droger
Exakt det var stålar det
Förblindade förtrollade
Kokade och skållade
Vi bygger upp ett samhälle
Där en stor del blir nollade
Klasskillnader med barnfattigdom för nästa generation
Det är ingen bra situation

Håll om mig
Nånting hotar kväva mig
Håll om mig
Bara du finns där för mig
Håll om mig
Nånting hotar kväva mig
Håll om mig
Bara du finns där för mig

Vad pröjsar du i hyra?
Hur mycket lån har du?
Om du säljer den idag
Vad får du nu?
Jag är trött på det där
För vi springer i flock
Är bekräftelsen här
Ja då vinner vi nåt
Man trycker på gasen
För att komma lite snabbare fram
Hela vägen där horisonten är grann
Guld och gröna skogar
Vi skottar och plogar
Och de som står i vägen dem får smaka på knogar
Jag är likadan för jag lever idag
Dragit mitt strå till stacken och jag gjorde det bra
Vem är jag?
Hur betraktar dem mig?
Men frågorna jag ställer säger mer om mig
De är min osäkerhet
Du kan kalla det ångest
Hela kroppen den skakar
Så snälla håll om mig
Ett lyxproblem
Men det är en vardaglig scen
Mycket vill ha mer
Det är så vi byggerr problem

Håll om mig
Nånting hotar kväva mig
Håll om mig
Bara du finns där för mig

Klart alla suktar efter nåt
Och inga drömmar är fel
Men jag kan se hela förändringar
Det vill säga problem
Några de får mera medan flera de får mindre
Folk har slutat bry sig så länge de får sin grej
Kalla fakta
Det är samhällets tumör
Vi kan inte blunda för det här
För det är sanningen vi hör
Vi har förlorat våran själ någonstans på färden
Tappat konceptet och fått fel bild av världen

Sanningen är
Håller ni mig
De kan knappast försvaras
Bara

Håll om mig
Nånting hotar kväva mig
Håll om mig
Bara du finns där för mig
Håll om mig
Nånting hotar kväva mig
Håll om mig
Bara du finns där för mig
Håll om mig
Håll om mig

Håll om mig by Petter feat. Daniel Adams-Ray

Det här är en sång, en blomma
Det här är en hälsning till de fromma.
De som inte jagar guldet och äran
De som ser lyckan i det de har nära
De som kan leva en dag i sänder
utan oljade tungor och blodiga händer
Dom som inte alltid letar efter spänningen i natten
Dom som kan leva på bara luft och vatten
Det här är en fanfar för de som verkligen har nånting kvar

Det här är en sång, en blomma
till de som inte är så tomma.
De som aldrig patrullerar gamla stan
eller snortar i sig drömmar runt Karlaplan.
De som inte alltid sneglar över de som har mera.
De som sätter barn till världen och får de att fungera.
Dom som inte vill vara en av ringarna på vattnet
Som kan leva under ytan och tycka det är vackert.
Det här är en fanfar för de som verkligen har nånting kvar.

Det här är en sång, en blomma.
Det här är en hälsning till de fromma.
De som kan bygga och bygga och bygga
och resa sig med solen och känna sig trygga.
Som inte schackrar och dealar i en blåfrusen ström.
Där varje handslag är ett vapen och varje andetag en lögn.
Som inte vill vara en av ringarna på vattnet.
Som kan leva under ytan och tycka det är vackert.
Det här är en fanfar för de som verkligen har nånting kvar.

Det här är en fanfar för de som verkligen har nånting kvar.

Det här är en fanfar för de som verkligen har nånting kvar.

Fanfar by Staffan Hellstrand

END-15 THE ONES LAST YEAR AWARDS!

I'm doing these awards again this year, yes. I'll be telling you my favourite in several different categories and a runner up.. in other words 2 titles/people/whatever wins in each category! There's not really any order to the two in each category so both win equally.

BEST ALBUM 2015

”Jag går nu” by Melissa Horn

Melissas albums have yet to dissapoint me, I just love her relatable lyrics and voice that goes right into your heart.

”For the young” by Anna Ternheim

Honestly, I realize I haven't listened to albums all that much this year. I love Anna Ternheim and this album seems to return to a sound that is closer to older albums, I love that. But I must say that I've only listened to it a few times and can't think of other albums. Ternheim deserves it (took it over Coldplay and others like that) but this was more a comment about my listening this year.

BEST GAME 2015

The Binding of Isaac: Afterbirth

An expansion that is big enough to qualify here, I bought Rebirth during the summer and I still play. It completely consumes me, it feels so nice to play and is always slightly different each time.

Dragon Ball Xenoverse

I love Dragon Ball and this game was the first in a long time to get me to buy a Dragon Ball game. It has so much content and feels like a big celebration of all that is Dragon Ball.

BEST ANIME 2015

One Punch Man

I love shonen series and this one was so over-the-top and parodic in nature that I just completely adore it.

One Piece

A new Dragon Ball series was really anticipated but I must say that I've been more excited to watch the continuation of One Piece rather than the rehashed content in Dragon Ball Super.

BEST MOVIE 2015

Star Wars: The Force Awakens

I need to see this movie several times more. It has been a long time since I've felt so much hype and I've completely fallen for the new cast already. Rey is sooooo awesome. 'nuf said.

The Hunger Games: Mockinjay part 2

The Marvel movies that I look forward to all year long were ok but not really enough of what I expected. This movie though, this movie was all a closing chapter could and should be, I was really shocked or moved by it, seldom have a couple of movies finished in such a spectacular way, I love it when a movie really holds up right to the end and this one definetly did.

Awards taken out from last year:

Best live performance. I just didn't really watch live performances, more so than earlier exclusions, this one might return some year.

If you happen to have any award that you feel I should’ve given out, it’s not too late yet! If anybody suggests something in the comments I could give out more awards later.

Another year has passed, I hope everybody is doing well and contributes to a better, more warmer world for all of us. With that said, the song of today;

The song of today:
Love Myself by Hailee Steinfield

I just love that this got as big as it did. No matter if you see it as a song about loving and respecting yourself, a song about not needing another person to feel whole or a song that encourages masturbation it is fantastic. All three interpretations are well needed in our society. On top of that the song is so catchy and makes me wanna dance like few songs do, I love it!

That was the new years-post for this year. Have a great year, take care of and love yourself.

Sixth New Years post

This is the sixth New Years post.

THE 40 QUESTIONS:

Just like I did the other years, I’ve answered 40 questions that I found on a page that doesn't exist anymore so I don't know who to give credit to for them. Here are the questions:

1. What did you do in 2014 that you’d never done before?

I was chairman for UNF in our county, V(/B)ästmanland. I also began to study again, pre-school teacher, let's see how that goes. Also, I participated in Höjdaren Socialt, it was something I hope I will remember for a long time.

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I don't have any.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

I don't know if it's that close but my new classmate that is already my old classmate gave birth.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

No.

5. What countries did you visit?

No other countries.

6. What would you like to have in 2015 that you lacked in 2014?

I hope that the stability and drive I've had during autumn will continue, having no job, having some trouble dealing with friends and so on wasn't that fun during the first half of the year.

7. What date from 2014 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

Probably 23 to 27 december, when we held Vit Jul Västerås in Västerås, 'cause it's a really big thing and I'm happy we were able to provide activities for young people during christmas.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

I chose to study again, and this time it feels kinda defining, so settling for such an option is scary and I'm proud.

9. What was your biggest failure?

I didn't manage to stop a process or two within UNF that I didn't want to end up in from the beginning.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

I had colds and stuff like that more than usual, especially during the final stretch of the year.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

I bought a christmas present for my great friend together with her sister during NärCon in the summer. It was big, round, a cat, fluffy and totally worth it!

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

The one who received the present from me. I feel we've spent much time together this year and that we got even closer than before, it makes my heart happy to think about how much we've done despite our tight scheduels this year. So that friendship is worth more than any exaggerated example I can think of.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

A huge deal of the population of my country? That a fascist party such as Sverigedemokraterna can get so many votes makes my heart sad and makes me wanna see a brighter future with a more happy country.

14. Where did most of your money go?

Maybe it's the travel costs to school? Though, I don't think I've ever spent so much money on gifts so that should be noted.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Friend-christmas and everything around it. I got really caught up. Also writing a calendar of my fictional universe.

16. What song will always remind you of 2014?

Do you want to build a snowman from Frozen.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

I. happier or sadder?

I guess I'm happier since last year I sounded pretty down.

II. thinner or fatter?

I feel thinner but I've done nothing to pursue that.

III. richer or poorer?

Richer.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Rest. A little bit too much to do this year.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Longing, missing.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

With family, with friends and with anyone who wants to come during Vit Jul Västerås. 3 celebrations!

21. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?

At Kenny’s, for our yearly LAN-party and HN, the tournament I help run during it, it will be awesome!

22. Did you fall in love in 2014?

No. Love is weird.

23. How many one-night stands?

0

24. What was your favorite TV program?

Så mycket bättre, season 5.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

Maybe I've gotten to know more faces of political oponents and spreaders of hatred so yes?

26. What was the best book you read?

The book that my friend have written :)

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Maybe it's Jonas Alaska, no, it's probably Partiet.

28. What did you want and got?

I wanted to see the strenght in some of my friendships confirmed.

29. What did you want and not get?

Even more time with some people that weren't really available.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?

The Hobbit, the battle of the five armies

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 23. I don't know what I did, that might be a sign of how bad everything was for a period there in spring.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Teleportation.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2014?

I hope people see me through or through my clothes.

34. What kept you sane?

My drive and doing stuff all the time.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Seriously just no.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

Well, it was election, so many issues surrounding that, but the right to vote for what you believe in feels important still. Ofcourse this is something that connects to so many issues but I'll leave it at that.

37. Who did you miss?

I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss my friend who studied in another city during the first half of the year.

38. Who was the best new person you met?

I met very awesome people through UNF but I also met new classmates. Don't make me choose.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2014:

Always check what you can manage (although I already know this I have a hard time following it).

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Like earlier years I will try to use ”only” 5 songs.

Do you wanna build a snowman?
Come on lets go and play
I never see you anymore
Come out the door
It's like you've gone away-
We used to be best buddies
And now we're not
I wish you would tell me why!-
Do you wanna build a snowman?
It doesn't have to be a snowman.

Go away, Anna

Okay, bye...

Do you wanna build a snowman?
Or ride our bikes around the halls
I think some company is overdue
I've started talking to
the pictures on the walls-
(Hang in there, Joan!)
It gets a little lonely
All these empty rooms,

Just watching the hours tick by-

Elsa?
Please, I know you're in there,
People are asking where you've been
They say "have courage", and I'm trying to
I'm right out here for you, just let me in
We only have each other
It's just you and me
What are we gonna do?

Do you wanna build a Snowman?

Do you wanna build a Snowman from Frozen

Dom kallar det för ”Supervalåret”
och gör det till ännu mer av ett jippo
Dom kränger politik men vem tjänar på det?
Min röst ska dom aldrig sätta pris på

Se igenom propagandan
och rösta på det som känns rätt
Om inte för dig så för nån annan
kan det betyda hur mycket som helst

Ok, så jag får välja mellan cancer och HIV
tack, det är ändå samma gubbar som styr
dom har till och med samma PR-strategi
säger: ”Alla behövs” – VM i plattityd

Du har fått så himla mycket gratis som dom flesta bara drömmer om
Politiska partier jobbar hårt, du bara dömmer dom
och glömmer dom som byggt upp fundamentet där du står
du är skyldig dom en röst, det tar en kvart var fjärde år

Vart fjärde år är det ett jävla skådespel
som du legitimerar med din röst
och om du spelar med så får du stå för det
oavsett vem som vinner nu i höst

Det du kallar skådespel, har uppnått en hel del
Se dig omkring och säg vad som är fel
med skola och vård och bostadsbidrag
Politiker ska tackas för mycket vi har!

Jag känner inte ett uns av tacksamhet
mot politiker som skär ner verksamhet
och om det låter hårt är det dags för dig
att vakna upp, ta och lukta på kaffet man!

För det är folkets kamp som har lett oss fram
till den välfärd vi har nu idag
medan politiker gör så gott dom kan
för att nedmontera och ta tillbaks

Precis och nu kan du rösta på nån som vill bygga upp
och snygga upp det som högern har fuckat upp
Din mupp! Det är inte ens komplicerat
Söndan, lappen, kuvertet, vad mera?

Så hela din politiska gärning
och längtan efter demokrati
reduceras till att du får ställning
till blå eller röd slipsfärg på ett parti?

Du kanske skiter i, om det är blått eller rött
men argumenten som gör mig så trött
är: “Det spelar ingen roll, allt är skit ändå”
och visst, det står fritt för dig att känna så

Men förstå, alla som inte är du
som inte har råd med fin bil och hus
vars liv kan förändras stort och på riktigt
Säg till dom att politiken inte är viktig!

Vem har sagt att politik inte är viktigt?
Men kör ditt race för jag går en annan riktning
Sjunger en sång, går vegan, gömmer en flykting
Möter aldrig hatet med en axelryckning

Du förvränger mina ord och du gör det med flit
för Fredrik jag tror du har hört min musik
Kanske svårt för nån som döpt sitt band till Partiet
att se skillnad på politik och partipolitik?

Jag ser saken klar: Du vill va rebell
”Proffsmårten” som kan göra allting själv
Men när du växer upp så kommer du att se
att hela vår demokrati är precis som DVSG

Ja, när den lilla människan, tillsammans på nåt vis
kan föra ojämn kamp men göra världen mindre orättvis
Det finns eldsjälar i nästan varje parti
så, är allt du tänker bidra med din intellektuella kritik?

Och när människor dör i sin kamp
för att få rösta på sin representant
Då blir det du gör ignorant
historielöst och nonchalant!

Nej, när människor dör för demokrati
och för rätten att bestämma om sitt liv
Då blir detta spel en parodi
en travesti, tragedi, idioti!

Supervalåret by Partiet and Promoe
Samma känslor
det är ett tag sen
men som om allt stått still
Du säger
att du blir kvar här, räckte inte till
För du vet inte vad du vill
Men, vad är det för jävla fel
i att bli den som blev kvar,
i våran stad där vi vuxit upp
vad är det för fel i att älska det man har

Ikväll så skapar vi nya minnen
vi ska leva som unga igen
försten i vattnet vinner
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah oooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah oooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen

Samma tankar, jag kanske flyttar
behövde komma bort
Från staden, med alla spöken
av blandad sort
jag stack från allt ja jag stack fort
Men vad är det för jävla fel i att bli den som blir kvar
i våran stad där vi vuxit upp
vad är det för fel i att älska det man har

Ikväll så skapar vi nya minnen
vi ska leva som unga igen
Försten i vattnet vinner
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah ooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah ooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen

Ikväll så skapar vi nya minnen
vi ska leva som unga igen
Försten i vattnet vinner
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah oooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah oooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah oooh
aaah oooh

Halmstad by Linnea Henriksson

Get out! this is meant to be shocking
Perverted disturbed this bird's mocking
Who's to say what's culture who's watching
Who's knocking
Get out! they're here to carry me away
Not done till i'm buried in a grave
And no one left to hear me when i say
They got rid of em all
Get out! turncoats turn folks into scapegoats
Burn crosses burn mosques lay low
No way burn every flag every nation
High horses hypocritical halo
Swastika carved on your face yo
9/19 what a day of shame for
The most enlightened country or you say so
But how modern is it to be racial

Well it looks to me
Like our history's
Running on repeat
Over and over again

Oh no, i don't follow you
'cus you're clearly delusional, all of you
In here we a family, i know it bothers you
Feeling left out of our little rendez vous
Boo, it's a scary thought i know
That my brother's bilingual and minutes ago
I was talking to my mother in law
Still got an accent after 35 years in this snow
Whoa, what a horrible crime
Cooking something that i've never seen in my life
And she's scared of this sweden that you vote and she paid for
Modern, enlightened, i heard when you said so..

Well it looks to me
Like our history's
Running on repeat
Over and over again

Go, get out now how you gon' react?
Go, stay out the ball is bouncing back!

You wanna isolate yourself, crush peoples dreams
Deny families to live in peace
But tell me how it feels out in the cold
When the hate that you breed is coming for your soul
Once again ignorance is hiding
Wolf in a sheeps suit and tie crying
(hit me) and they call it a bluff
That we see kids in apathy cus they had enough
Who's gonna stop us, who's gonna close the door?
As long as we live and got our vocal cords
Watch who you voting for, this state's so
Modern, enlightened, i heard when they said it's so…

Well it looks to me
Like our history's
Running on repeat
Over and over again

On Repeat by Looptroop Rockers

Thank you for being a friend
Traveled down the road and back again
your heart is true you're a pal and a confidant

I'm not ashamed to say
I hope it always will stay this way
My hat is off, won't you stand up and take a bow

And if you threw a party
Invited everyone you knew
You would see, the biggest gift would be from me
and the card attached would say,
Thank you for being a friend

Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend

If it's a car you lack
I'd surely buy you a cadillac
Whatever you need, anytime of the day or night

I'm not ashamed to say
I hope it always will stay this way
My hat is off, won't you stand up and take a bow

And when we both get older
With walking canes and hair of gray
Have no fear, even though it's hard to hear
I will stand real close and say,
Thank you for being a friend

(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Let me tell you bout a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend

And when we die and float away
Into the night, the Milky Way
You'll hear me call, as we ascend
I'll see you there, then once again
Thank you for being a..

Ba ba ba ba ba ba ba

Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you) [and so on]
Whoa, tell you about a friend
(Thank you right now, for being a friend)
Thank you for being a friend
(I wanna tell you right now, and tell you again)
Thank you for being a friend
(I wanna thank you, thank you, for being a friend)
Thank you for being a friend

Thank you for being a friend by Andrew Gold

END-12 THE ONES LAST YEAR AWARDS!

I'm doing these awards again this year, yes. I'll be telling you my favourite in several different categories and a runner up.. in other words 2 titles/people/whatever wins in each category! There's not really any order to the two in each category so both win equally.

BEST LIVE PERFORMANCE 2014

Navid Modiri och Gudarna 

It was fantastic, it was great, we, the whole room, danced and my heart sang.

Loke Nyberg during NärCon in Linköping.

If I could bring any other performance to mind I would've picked that because Loke won last year too and I remember last years concert more fondly. I'm not trying to say that it was bad though, it was really enjoyable.

BEST ALBUM 2014

”Du söker bråk, jag kräver dans” by Linnea Henriksson

So great! I really love the music Linnea Henriksson makes, it almost always hits home. Such a good songwriter!

”Rastlöst blod” by Markus Krunegård

I've listened to this quite a bit and it's quite great, his lyrics are often spot on and the music matches.

BEST GAME 2014

Super Smash Bros for Wii U

Smash has a very special place in my heart and the game didn't disapoint in my opinion, I will be playing this for ages I think.

Shovel Knight

A fantastic use of the pixel look and feel that I love, mixed with some great ideas.

BEST ANIME 2014

Hunter x Hunter

I really love this series, everything about it. I'm so sad that it ended. I had a great time watching the series again with my great friend, further hightening my love for the series.

Dragon Ball Kai

It is quite fun to watch my childhood favorite manga in crisp animé-form.

BEST MOVIE 2014

The Hobbit: The Battle of The Five Armies

I've seen it twice already, it's got everything I could've wanted I think.

Frozen

Neither Captain America: The Winter Soldier or Maleficent melted my heart like this movie. X-men and Hunger games had cool bits. But none of them came close to being as cool as Frozen, I simply love it. The four movies I mentioned would be the runner-ups though, Guardians of the Galaxy and things like that were ok but not on the same level. I love the fact that this movie exist and hope that Disney continues to break their stereotypical portrayals and does it even more.

Awards taken out from last year:

None, I'm quite happy with this narrowed down version.

If you happen to have any award that you feel I should’ve given out, it’s not too late yet! If anybody suggests something in the comments I could give out more awards later.

That was another year, and now I give you; the song of today:

The song of today:
I Wrote a Song for You by Jonas Alaska

Spotify helped me find this. And I love it, I really do, I like lyrics about things that are hard to deal with and heartbreaking, this really is that. The many different examples just drives home the unbelieveable sorrow and the terrible situation. Great, striking lyrics with a kind of easygoing tune to back it up. It createates a nice contrast and I just keep on listening.

That's it, I hope you have a fantastic year ahead of you, I will make mine awesome.