Seventh New Years post

This is the seventh New Years post.

THE 40 QUESTIONS:

Just like every year, I’ve answered 40 questions that I found on a page that doesn't exist anymore so I don't know who to give credit to for them. Here are the questions:

1. What did you do in 2015 that you’d never done before?

I got chosen to be one of the people who leaves a suggestion about all the elections based on personality to the 2017 congress for UNF.

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

Nope, nope.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

I don't think so.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

No.

5. What countries did you visit?

I stayed here all year.

6. What would you like to have in 2016 that you lacked in 2015?

I would like my health to be better, I am trying to take care of myself now.

7. What date from 2015 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

I don't know really. Maybe the 16^th of december, because Star Wars. Or the 30^th of october because The Binding of Isaac Afterbirth released, I've played that game (Rebirth and Afterbirth together) over 700 hours this year.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Honestly I think it's making my december a pretty decent place to be, I have as much on my plate but isn't stressed out because of good planing.

9. What was your biggest failure?

I feel it is getting so little done with UNF locally, I feel it's my fault.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

I felt down mentally for several months, that was rough. I've lost a lot of weight too, I need to check up on that.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

Probably another christmas present for my dear friend (a figurine).

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

My friendship with the person from last year is still great. But I also want to celebrate my old textmessage-friend who moved to the US this summer, we still stay in touch and met to say goodbye during the summer too. Finally I'm really happy to have a classmate who seems to be on some of the same wavelenghts as me.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

Politics and the state of the world gets me really down at the moment, both at home and abroad, I wish my country would do more to help fugitives and I wish people like Donald Trump didn't exist and especially not anywhere near positions of power.

14. Where did most of your money go?

Schoolstuff, definetly. But I bought quite a bit of electronics and stuff like that that should be noted.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Super Smash Bros for Wii U DLC, Star Wars the Force Awakens.

16. What song will always remind you of 2015?

Maybe “Did You Give the World Some Love Today, Baby” by Doris, for about a month I sent a message to one person in my life and it was all kind of inspired by this song.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

I. happier or sadder?

I'm happier because I think I was stressed out last year.

II. thinner or fatter?

I'm much thinner, to the point that it worries me.

III. richer or poorer?

Monetarily poorer but you always get richer with experience.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

I wish I would've hit up my friends to hang out a little more.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Procrastinating.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

With family and with friends, two seperate occations.

21. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?

At home actually, we moved the location of HN to my home so ten people are going to come here and play videogames to compete against eachother, it will be fantastic!

22. Did you fall in love in 2015?

No.

23. How many one-night stands?

0

24. What was your favorite TV program?

Probably Jessica Jones. Maybe Agent Carter. The other Marvel shows were brilliant too.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

Donald Trump?

26. What was the best book you read?

I kind of only read one proper book for myself. And I got through half of it, so it has to be Bruce I think, by Peter Ames Carlin.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Allan Edwalls music maybe, Beatrice Eli? Miriam Bryant? Rediscovering Marit Larsen?

28. What did you want and got?

I don't know, I don't think I asked for big things, so I think I got the small things I wanted.

29. What did you want and not get?

Some of my relationships on more steady ground.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?

Star Wars: The Force Awakens

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 24. I didn't celebrate all that much.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Basic income.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2015?

I actually tried to look a little more like I wanted to look, I felt good with myself this year.

34. What kept you sane?

Unfortunately just doing stuff all the time, not thinking too much.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Ok so yeah, Daisy Ridley swept in and stole the attention from people like Jennifer Lawrence, Emma Watson and Emma Stone.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

The refugee-situation.

37. Who did you miss?

I don't really know if I missed someone for the entire year or even longer periods of time.

38. Who was the best new person you met?

Again some people through UNF and I really got to know a classmate too.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2015:

Take care of yourself in order to take care of others.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Like earlier years I will try to use ”only” 5 songs.

Så var det med sommaren

Och tjong då var det höst igen

Med samma gamla trötta attribut

Det är inget nytt att det blir höst

Men inte heller någon tröst

Att veta att man har mått såhär förut

Jag drar halsduken allt hårdare runtom min hesa hals

Tills jag plötsligt inser att jag knappt kan andas alls

Det är väl inte det att något gör mig ledsen

Det är väl mera det att inget gör mig glad

Var god tag plats på nedstämdhetsexpressen

Enkelresa emot Melankolia stad

Visst borde jag ta mig i kragen

Leva ut och fånga dagen

Festa till och prova bungie-jump

Vara här och nu och mitt i livet

Men själva initiativet

Sitter märkligt fast som i en kramp

Så jag tror det att blir jag och TV:n även denna kväll

Det känns förövrigt ganska skevt att gråta i en karusell

Blir mest beklämd utav upplevelsestressen

Visst vill jag vara med om, men vet inte vad

Så här kommer jag med nedstämdhetsexpressen

I hundrafemtio knyck mot Melankolia stad

Du säger att tröttheten mitt hjärta rymmer

Ja, just den typen av bekymmer

Lider många människor av idag

Men du har svårare för att beskriva

Vad som är det positiva

Med att det finns fler som mår som jag

För jag skiter i om jag är en av hundratusental

Det gör ju inte mindre ont bara för att smärtan är normal

Själva omtanken ökar bara pressen

Det smakar skuld om varje kopp med varm choklad

Man har en egen vagn på nedstämdhetsexpressen

Man åker ensam emot Melankolia stad

Du säger att du saknar mig

Jag saknar saknaden i sig

Hur vackert, hur fult allting var

Och när allting kommer ikring

Är ju allting bättre än ingenting

Men ingenting är allting jag har kvar

Nu känner jag hur tåget saktar av och stannar till

Och jag reser långsamt på mig, det är väl inte att jag vill

Men vi är framme vid den slutliga adressen

Dags att ta plats i skuggfigurernas parad

Ändhållplats för nedstämdhetsexpressen

Vi är framme i Melankolia stad

Här går jag genom gråa gränder

Över askbeströdda stränder

Tunga steg i stillastånden höst

Genom tjock och klibbig dimma

Var minut känns som en timma

När jag plötsligt minns det sista av din röst

Du sa det här är inget avsked för när du väl kommer dit

Ja då kommer du att minnas, du är bara på visit

Jag vet ditt hjärta är så tungt att det vill fly ditt bröst

Och just nu är det kanske ingen lindring eller tröst

Men jag finns kvar på andra sidan av processen

Och du skall återvända som du alltid gjort

Det går returresor med nedstämdhetsexpressen

Dem går stadigt, men inte lika fort

Dem går stadigt, men inte lika fort

Melankolia stad by Loke

When you feel like a story, without its last page
Feel like the morning, too scared to break
Lean on me
Lean on me

When you feel like goodbye on the tip of your tongue
You’re pulling the weight of the world on your own
Lean on me
Lean on me, Lisa

Like a tree, like a rock, like a tall mountaintop
Like a dream, like a promise, a sunny memory
Like a truth, like a song, a place you call home
Lean on me, Lisa

When you’re acting winter, waiting for spring
When both feet are anchors, you can’t find your wings
Lean on me
Lean on me, Lisa

Like a tree, like a rock, like a tall mountaintop
Like a dream, like a promise, a sunny memory
Like a truth, like a song, a place you call home

When you’re a ship lost at sea
When you drift away from me
Lean on me, Lisa
Lean on me, Lisa

Like a tree, like a rock, like a tall mountaintop
Like a dream, like a promise, a sunny memory
Like a truth, like a song, a place you call home
Lean on me, Lisa

Lean on me, Lisa by Marit Larsen
Jag gick upp klockan två idag
det var samma sak igår
du hade ringt mig nån gång när jag sov
säkert för att fråga hur det går

jag åt frukost nån gång efter tre
sen blev jag trött av det
lade mig på soffan och vilade en stund
sen ångrade jag det

alla har nånting som dom bryr sig om
och jag bryr mig om dig
och fastän jag vet bättre känns det som
att jag inte har nånting att ge dig

dom flesta jag känner har ett jobb som du
du är där nu
och jag har väntat hela långa dan
på att du ska komma hem
och om du inte kommer snart
går jag och lägger mig igen

du kommer hem och jag ser att du är trött
men jag måste prata med dig
och mitt i det viktiga
så har du somnat ifrån mig

jag är vaken hela natten inatt
det var samma sak igår
jag börjar bli orolig över att
du inte vet hur jag mår

livet går en för fort förbi
förstår inte hur
när jag blir stor vill jag inte bli
den jag är nu

jag är vaken hela natten inatt
det blir likadant imorn
först när det är kolsvart
ser jag vad jag drömmer om

det jag säger att jag gör
det gör jag inte ens
så vad är det jag gör
jag skriver ner alla tankar jag har
för då ser dom bättre ut
jag beskrev det här som en helt vanlig dag
skönt att den snart är slutden snart är slutEn helt vanlig dag by Melissa Horn

Kan låta cynisk
Min filosofi
Försöker ändra min stil
På nåt sätt bromsa mitt driv
Jag hustlar cash
Och jag gör det med stil
Men jag jobbar med mig själv
Försöker ändra mitt liv
Jag måste bort härifrån
Det är inte sunt
Samma gamla snack
Samtalsämnen går runt
Ibland jag tänker tillbaks
På min barndom tedde sig
Fick en moral
Som jag tror kan ha räddat mig
Solidaritet är det enda jag vet
Både tänker och ser på det sättet allt mer
Miljön den blir hårdare
Terrängen blir svåtare
Vi jagar efter droger
Exakt det var stålar det
Förblindade förtrollade
Kokade och skållade
Vi bygger upp ett samhälle
Där en stor del blir nollade
Klasskillnader med barnfattigdom för nästa generation
Det är ingen bra situation

Håll om mig
Nånting hotar kväva mig
Håll om mig
Bara du finns där för mig
Håll om mig
Nånting hotar kväva mig
Håll om mig
Bara du finns där för mig

Vad pröjsar du i hyra?
Hur mycket lån har du?
Om du säljer den idag
Vad får du nu?
Jag är trött på det där
För vi springer i flock
Är bekräftelsen här
Ja då vinner vi nåt
Man trycker på gasen
För att komma lite snabbare fram
Hela vägen där horisonten är grann
Guld och gröna skogar
Vi skottar och plogar
Och de som står i vägen dem får smaka på knogar
Jag är likadan för jag lever idag
Dragit mitt strå till stacken och jag gjorde det bra
Vem är jag?
Hur betraktar dem mig?
Men frågorna jag ställer säger mer om mig
De är min osäkerhet
Du kan kalla det ångest
Hela kroppen den skakar
Så snälla håll om mig
Ett lyxproblem
Men det är en vardaglig scen
Mycket vill ha mer
Det är så vi byggerr problem

Håll om mig
Nånting hotar kväva mig
Håll om mig
Bara du finns där för mig

Klart alla suktar efter nåt
Och inga drömmar är fel
Men jag kan se hela förändringar
Det vill säga problem
Några de får mera medan flera de får mindre
Folk har slutat bry sig så länge de får sin grej
Kalla fakta
Det är samhällets tumör
Vi kan inte blunda för det här
För det är sanningen vi hör
Vi har förlorat våran själ någonstans på färden
Tappat konceptet och fått fel bild av världen

Sanningen är
Håller ni mig
De kan knappast försvaras
Bara

Håll om mig
Nånting hotar kväva mig
Håll om mig
Bara du finns där för mig
Håll om mig
Nånting hotar kväva mig
Håll om mig
Bara du finns där för mig
Håll om mig
Håll om mig

Håll om mig by Petter feat. Daniel Adams-Ray

Det här är en sång, en blomma
Det här är en hälsning till de fromma.
De som inte jagar guldet och äran
De som ser lyckan i det de har nära
De som kan leva en dag i sänder
utan oljade tungor och blodiga händer
Dom som inte alltid letar efter spänningen i natten
Dom som kan leva på bara luft och vatten
Det här är en fanfar för de som verkligen har nånting kvar

Det här är en sång, en blomma
till de som inte är så tomma.
De som aldrig patrullerar gamla stan
eller snortar i sig drömmar runt Karlaplan.
De som inte alltid sneglar över de som har mera.
De som sätter barn till världen och får de att fungera.
Dom som inte vill vara en av ringarna på vattnet
Som kan leva under ytan och tycka det är vackert.
Det här är en fanfar för de som verkligen har nånting kvar.

Det här är en sång, en blomma.
Det här är en hälsning till de fromma.
De som kan bygga och bygga och bygga
och resa sig med solen och känna sig trygga.
Som inte schackrar och dealar i en blåfrusen ström.
Där varje handslag är ett vapen och varje andetag en lögn.
Som inte vill vara en av ringarna på vattnet.
Som kan leva under ytan och tycka det är vackert.
Det här är en fanfar för de som verkligen har nånting kvar.

Det här är en fanfar för de som verkligen har nånting kvar.

Det här är en fanfar för de som verkligen har nånting kvar.

Fanfar by Staffan Hellstrand

END-15 THE ONES LAST YEAR AWARDS!

I'm doing these awards again this year, yes. I'll be telling you my favourite in several different categories and a runner up.. in other words 2 titles/people/whatever wins in each category! There's not really any order to the two in each category so both win equally.

BEST ALBUM 2015

”Jag går nu” by Melissa Horn

Melissas albums have yet to dissapoint me, I just love her relatable lyrics and voice that goes right into your heart.

”For the young” by Anna Ternheim

Honestly, I realize I haven't listened to albums all that much this year. I love Anna Ternheim and this album seems to return to a sound that is closer to older albums, I love that. But I must say that I've only listened to it a few times and can't think of other albums. Ternheim deserves it (took it over Coldplay and others like that) but this was more a comment about my listening this year.

BEST GAME 2015

The Binding of Isaac: Afterbirth

An expansion that is big enough to qualify here, I bought Rebirth during the summer and I still play. It completely consumes me, it feels so nice to play and is always slightly different each time.

Dragon Ball Xenoverse

I love Dragon Ball and this game was the first in a long time to get me to buy a Dragon Ball game. It has so much content and feels like a big celebration of all that is Dragon Ball.

BEST ANIME 2015

One Punch Man

I love shonen series and this one was so over-the-top and parodic in nature that I just completely adore it.

One Piece

A new Dragon Ball series was really anticipated but I must say that I've been more excited to watch the continuation of One Piece rather than the rehashed content in Dragon Ball Super.

BEST MOVIE 2015

Star Wars: The Force Awakens

I need to see this movie several times more. It has been a long time since I've felt so much hype and I've completely fallen for the new cast already. Rey is sooooo awesome. 'nuf said.

The Hunger Games: Mockinjay part 2

The Marvel movies that I look forward to all year long were ok but not really enough of what I expected. This movie though, this movie was all a closing chapter could and should be, I was really shocked or moved by it, seldom have a couple of movies finished in such a spectacular way, I love it when a movie really holds up right to the end and this one definetly did.

Awards taken out from last year:

Best live performance. I just didn't really watch live performances, more so than earlier exclusions, this one might return some year.

If you happen to have any award that you feel I should’ve given out, it’s not too late yet! If anybody suggests something in the comments I could give out more awards later.

Another year has passed, I hope everybody is doing well and contributes to a better, more warmer world for all of us. With that said, the song of today;

The song of today:
Love Myself by Hailee Steinfield

I just love that this got as big as it did. No matter if you see it as a song about loving and respecting yourself, a song about not needing another person to feel whole or a song that encourages masturbation it is fantastic. All three interpretations are well needed in our society. On top of that the song is so catchy and makes me wanna dance like few songs do, I love it!

That was the new years-post for this year. Have a great year, take care of and love yourself.

Sixth New Years post

This is the sixth New Years post.

THE 40 QUESTIONS:

Just like I did the other years, I’ve answered 40 questions that I found on a page that doesn't exist anymore so I don't know who to give credit to for them. Here are the questions:

1. What did you do in 2014 that you’d never done before?

I was chairman for UNF in our county, V(/B)ästmanland. I also began to study again, pre-school teacher, let's see how that goes. Also, I participated in Höjdaren Socialt, it was something I hope I will remember for a long time.

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I don't have any.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

I don't know if it's that close but my new classmate that is already my old classmate gave birth.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

No.

5. What countries did you visit?

No other countries.

6. What would you like to have in 2015 that you lacked in 2014?

I hope that the stability and drive I've had during autumn will continue, having no job, having some trouble dealing with friends and so on wasn't that fun during the first half of the year.

7. What date from 2014 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

Probably 23 to 27 december, when we held Vit Jul Västerås in Västerås, 'cause it's a really big thing and I'm happy we were able to provide activities for young people during christmas.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

I chose to study again, and this time it feels kinda defining, so settling for such an option is scary and I'm proud.

9. What was your biggest failure?

I didn't manage to stop a process or two within UNF that I didn't want to end up in from the beginning.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

I had colds and stuff like that more than usual, especially during the final stretch of the year.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

I bought a christmas present for my great friend together with her sister during NärCon in the summer. It was big, round, a cat, fluffy and totally worth it!

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

The one who received the present from me. I feel we've spent much time together this year and that we got even closer than before, it makes my heart happy to think about how much we've done despite our tight scheduels this year. So that friendship is worth more than any exaggerated example I can think of.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

A huge deal of the population of my country? That a fascist party such as Sverigedemokraterna can get so many votes makes my heart sad and makes me wanna see a brighter future with a more happy country.

14. Where did most of your money go?

Maybe it's the travel costs to school? Though, I don't think I've ever spent so much money on gifts so that should be noted.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Friend-christmas and everything around it. I got really caught up. Also writing a calendar of my fictional universe.

16. What song will always remind you of 2014?

Do you want to build a snowman from Frozen.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

I. happier or sadder?

I guess I'm happier since last year I sounded pretty down.

II. thinner or fatter?

I feel thinner but I've done nothing to pursue that.

III. richer or poorer?

Richer.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Rest. A little bit too much to do this year.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Longing, missing.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

With family, with friends and with anyone who wants to come during Vit Jul Västerås. 3 celebrations!

21. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?

At Kenny’s, for our yearly LAN-party and HN, the tournament I help run during it, it will be awesome!

22. Did you fall in love in 2014?

No. Love is weird.

23. How many one-night stands?

0

24. What was your favorite TV program?

Så mycket bättre, season 5.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

Maybe I've gotten to know more faces of political oponents and spreaders of hatred so yes?

26. What was the best book you read?

The book that my friend have written :)

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Maybe it's Jonas Alaska, no, it's probably Partiet.

28. What did you want and got?

I wanted to see the strenght in some of my friendships confirmed.

29. What did you want and not get?

Even more time with some people that weren't really available.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?

The Hobbit, the battle of the five armies

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 23. I don't know what I did, that might be a sign of how bad everything was for a period there in spring.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Teleportation.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2014?

I hope people see me through or through my clothes.

34. What kept you sane?

My drive and doing stuff all the time.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Seriously just no.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

Well, it was election, so many issues surrounding that, but the right to vote for what you believe in feels important still. Ofcourse this is something that connects to so many issues but I'll leave it at that.

37. Who did you miss?

I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss my friend who studied in another city during the first half of the year.

38. Who was the best new person you met?

I met very awesome people through UNF but I also met new classmates. Don't make me choose.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2014:

Always check what you can manage (although I already know this I have a hard time following it).

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Like earlier years I will try to use ”only” 5 songs.

Do you wanna build a snowman?
Come on lets go and play
I never see you anymore
Come out the door
It's like you've gone away-
We used to be best buddies
And now we're not
I wish you would tell me why!-
Do you wanna build a snowman?
It doesn't have to be a snowman.

Go away, Anna

Okay, bye...

Do you wanna build a snowman?
Or ride our bikes around the halls
I think some company is overdue
I've started talking to
the pictures on the walls-
(Hang in there, Joan!)
It gets a little lonely
All these empty rooms,

Just watching the hours tick by-

Elsa?
Please, I know you're in there,
People are asking where you've been
They say "have courage", and I'm trying to
I'm right out here for you, just let me in
We only have each other
It's just you and me
What are we gonna do?

Do you wanna build a Snowman?

Do you wanna build a Snowman from Frozen

Dom kallar det för ”Supervalåret”
och gör det till ännu mer av ett jippo
Dom kränger politik men vem tjänar på det?
Min röst ska dom aldrig sätta pris på

Se igenom propagandan
och rösta på det som känns rätt
Om inte för dig så för nån annan
kan det betyda hur mycket som helst

Ok, så jag får välja mellan cancer och HIV
tack, det är ändå samma gubbar som styr
dom har till och med samma PR-strategi
säger: ”Alla behövs” – VM i plattityd

Du har fått så himla mycket gratis som dom flesta bara drömmer om
Politiska partier jobbar hårt, du bara dömmer dom
och glömmer dom som byggt upp fundamentet där du står
du är skyldig dom en röst, det tar en kvart var fjärde år

Vart fjärde år är det ett jävla skådespel
som du legitimerar med din röst
och om du spelar med så får du stå för det
oavsett vem som vinner nu i höst

Det du kallar skådespel, har uppnått en hel del
Se dig omkring och säg vad som är fel
med skola och vård och bostadsbidrag
Politiker ska tackas för mycket vi har!

Jag känner inte ett uns av tacksamhet
mot politiker som skär ner verksamhet
och om det låter hårt är det dags för dig
att vakna upp, ta och lukta på kaffet man!

För det är folkets kamp som har lett oss fram
till den välfärd vi har nu idag
medan politiker gör så gott dom kan
för att nedmontera och ta tillbaks

Precis och nu kan du rösta på nån som vill bygga upp
och snygga upp det som högern har fuckat upp
Din mupp! Det är inte ens komplicerat
Söndan, lappen, kuvertet, vad mera?

Så hela din politiska gärning
och längtan efter demokrati
reduceras till att du får ställning
till blå eller röd slipsfärg på ett parti?

Du kanske skiter i, om det är blått eller rött
men argumenten som gör mig så trött
är: “Det spelar ingen roll, allt är skit ändå”
och visst, det står fritt för dig att känna så

Men förstå, alla som inte är du
som inte har råd med fin bil och hus
vars liv kan förändras stort och på riktigt
Säg till dom att politiken inte är viktig!

Vem har sagt att politik inte är viktigt?
Men kör ditt race för jag går en annan riktning
Sjunger en sång, går vegan, gömmer en flykting
Möter aldrig hatet med en axelryckning

Du förvränger mina ord och du gör det med flit
för Fredrik jag tror du har hört min musik
Kanske svårt för nån som döpt sitt band till Partiet
att se skillnad på politik och partipolitik?

Jag ser saken klar: Du vill va rebell
”Proffsmårten” som kan göra allting själv
Men när du växer upp så kommer du att se
att hela vår demokrati är precis som DVSG

Ja, när den lilla människan, tillsammans på nåt vis
kan föra ojämn kamp men göra världen mindre orättvis
Det finns eldsjälar i nästan varje parti
så, är allt du tänker bidra med din intellektuella kritik?

Och när människor dör i sin kamp
för att få rösta på sin representant
Då blir det du gör ignorant
historielöst och nonchalant!

Nej, när människor dör för demokrati
och för rätten att bestämma om sitt liv
Då blir detta spel en parodi
en travesti, tragedi, idioti!

Supervalåret by Partiet and Promoe
Samma känslor
det är ett tag sen
men som om allt stått still
Du säger
att du blir kvar här, räckte inte till
För du vet inte vad du vill
Men, vad är det för jävla fel
i att bli den som blev kvar,
i våran stad där vi vuxit upp
vad är det för fel i att älska det man har

Ikväll så skapar vi nya minnen
vi ska leva som unga igen
försten i vattnet vinner
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah oooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah oooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen

Samma tankar, jag kanske flyttar
behövde komma bort
Från staden, med alla spöken
av blandad sort
jag stack från allt ja jag stack fort
Men vad är det för jävla fel i att bli den som blir kvar
i våran stad där vi vuxit upp
vad är det för fel i att älska det man har

Ikväll så skapar vi nya minnen
vi ska leva som unga igen
Försten i vattnet vinner
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah ooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah ooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen

Ikväll så skapar vi nya minnen
vi ska leva som unga igen
Försten i vattnet vinner
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah oooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah oooh
och jag lovar komma hem igen
aaah oooh
aaah oooh

Halmstad by Linnea Henriksson

Get out! this is meant to be shocking
Perverted disturbed this bird's mocking
Who's to say what's culture who's watching
Who's knocking
Get out! they're here to carry me away
Not done till i'm buried in a grave
And no one left to hear me when i say
They got rid of em all
Get out! turncoats turn folks into scapegoats
Burn crosses burn mosques lay low
No way burn every flag every nation
High horses hypocritical halo
Swastika carved on your face yo
9/19 what a day of shame for
The most enlightened country or you say so
But how modern is it to be racial

Well it looks to me
Like our history's
Running on repeat
Over and over again

Oh no, i don't follow you
'cus you're clearly delusional, all of you
In here we a family, i know it bothers you
Feeling left out of our little rendez vous
Boo, it's a scary thought i know
That my brother's bilingual and minutes ago
I was talking to my mother in law
Still got an accent after 35 years in this snow
Whoa, what a horrible crime
Cooking something that i've never seen in my life
And she's scared of this sweden that you vote and she paid for
Modern, enlightened, i heard when you said so..

Well it looks to me
Like our history's
Running on repeat
Over and over again

Go, get out now how you gon' react?
Go, stay out the ball is bouncing back!

You wanna isolate yourself, crush peoples dreams
Deny families to live in peace
But tell me how it feels out in the cold
When the hate that you breed is coming for your soul
Once again ignorance is hiding
Wolf in a sheeps suit and tie crying
(hit me) and they call it a bluff
That we see kids in apathy cus they had enough
Who's gonna stop us, who's gonna close the door?
As long as we live and got our vocal cords
Watch who you voting for, this state's so
Modern, enlightened, i heard when they said it's so…

Well it looks to me
Like our history's
Running on repeat
Over and over again

On Repeat by Looptroop Rockers

Thank you for being a friend
Traveled down the road and back again
your heart is true you're a pal and a confidant

I'm not ashamed to say
I hope it always will stay this way
My hat is off, won't you stand up and take a bow

And if you threw a party
Invited everyone you knew
You would see, the biggest gift would be from me
and the card attached would say,
Thank you for being a friend

Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend

If it's a car you lack
I'd surely buy you a cadillac
Whatever you need, anytime of the day or night

I'm not ashamed to say
I hope it always will stay this way
My hat is off, won't you stand up and take a bow

And when we both get older
With walking canes and hair of gray
Have no fear, even though it's hard to hear
I will stand real close and say,
Thank you for being a friend

(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Let me tell you bout a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend

And when we die and float away
Into the night, the Milky Way
You'll hear me call, as we ascend
I'll see you there, then once again
Thank you for being a..

Ba ba ba ba ba ba ba

Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you) [and so on]
Whoa, tell you about a friend
(Thank you right now, for being a friend)
Thank you for being a friend
(I wanna tell you right now, and tell you again)
Thank you for being a friend
(I wanna thank you, thank you, for being a friend)
Thank you for being a friend

Thank you for being a friend by Andrew Gold

END-12 THE ONES LAST YEAR AWARDS!

I'm doing these awards again this year, yes. I'll be telling you my favourite in several different categories and a runner up.. in other words 2 titles/people/whatever wins in each category! There's not really any order to the two in each category so both win equally.

BEST LIVE PERFORMANCE 2014

Navid Modiri och Gudarna 

It was fantastic, it was great, we, the whole room, danced and my heart sang.

Loke Nyberg during NärCon in Linköping.

If I could bring any other performance to mind I would've picked that because Loke won last year too and I remember last years concert more fondly. I'm not trying to say that it was bad though, it was really enjoyable.

BEST ALBUM 2014

”Du söker bråk, jag kräver dans” by Linnea Henriksson

So great! I really love the music Linnea Henriksson makes, it almost always hits home. Such a good songwriter!

”Rastlöst blod” by Markus Krunegård

I've listened to this quite a bit and it's quite great, his lyrics are often spot on and the music matches.

BEST GAME 2014

Super Smash Bros for Wii U

Smash has a very special place in my heart and the game didn't disapoint in my opinion, I will be playing this for ages I think.

Shovel Knight

A fantastic use of the pixel look and feel that I love, mixed with some great ideas.

BEST ANIME 2014

Hunter x Hunter

I really love this series, everything about it. I'm so sad that it ended. I had a great time watching the series again with my great friend, further hightening my love for the series.

Dragon Ball Kai

It is quite fun to watch my childhood favorite manga in crisp animé-form.

BEST MOVIE 2014

The Hobbit: The Battle of The Five Armies

I've seen it twice already, it's got everything I could've wanted I think.

Frozen

Neither Captain America: The Winter Soldier or Maleficent melted my heart like this movie. X-men and Hunger games had cool bits. But none of them came close to being as cool as Frozen, I simply love it. The four movies I mentioned would be the runner-ups though, Guardians of the Galaxy and things like that were ok but not on the same level. I love the fact that this movie exist and hope that Disney continues to break their stereotypical portrayals and does it even more.

Awards taken out from last year:

None, I'm quite happy with this narrowed down version.

If you happen to have any award that you feel I should’ve given out, it’s not too late yet! If anybody suggests something in the comments I could give out more awards later.

That was another year, and now I give you; the song of today:

The song of today:
I Wrote a Song for You by Jonas Alaska

Spotify helped me find this. And I love it, I really do, I like lyrics about things that are hard to deal with and heartbreaking, this really is that. The many different examples just drives home the unbelieveable sorrow and the terrible situation. Great, striking lyrics with a kind of easygoing tune to back it up. It createates a nice contrast and I just keep on listening.

That's it, I hope you have a fantastic year ahead of you, I will make mine awesome.

Fifth New Years Post

This is the fifth New Years post.

THE 40 QUESTIONS:

Just like I did the other years, I’ve answered 40 questions that I found at a page that doesn't exist anymore so I don't know who to give credit for them. Here are the questions:

1. What did you do in 2013 that you’d never done before?

I was the secretary for UNF in our county. I also wrote a bachelor thesis.

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I don't have any.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

I don't think so(?)

4. Did anyone close to you die?

Not really.

5. What countries did you visit?

My own.

6. What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?

I would like to feel better. I hope I'm already starting to. A job would be much appreciated too.

7. What date from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

The last full week of febuary I think. It's easy to remember the bad times I guess... although the week in the middle of summer when UNF, Junis and IOGT-NTO had our congress was fantastic too so maybe that!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

I managed to write my bachelor thesis. But maybe my honesty when it comes to ”falling in love” was bigger. I managed to be honest way faster than the times before in my life.

9. What was your biggest failure?

Getting nothing done aaaaaall autumn.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

Well I had an ear infection for 3 weeks.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

Maybe it was the prizes for our video game tournament we have every new years.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

My friends who supported me through my hardships. Especially my old internet friend maybe. We supported each other very much throughout the year.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

I don't think there was anyone like that. I guess I'm lucky in that sense!

14. Where did most of your money go?

I think it went towards school, even though I only went to school for the first half of the year.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

I don't now if I got all that excited about anything. Although I did get plesently surprised by many things!

16. What song will always remind you of 2013?

Empty Chairs at Empty Tables from Les Miserables. Partly because this year was much about Les Mis, partly because the song really touched me and partly because I was afraid, over a long period of time, that I would end up alone this year.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

I. happier or sadder?

I won't lie. I've had a rough year and I've been down and sad and so on much of the time. I'm quite ok right now but the the year as a whole was definetly sadder.

II. thinner or fatter?

Fatter. Gonna start running again though.

III. richer or poorer?

Poorer.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

I don't know, hang out with my friends?

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Being unactive.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

I celebrated with my family but celebrating with my friends was greater!

21. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?

I was at Kenny’s, for our yearly LAN-party and the gaming tournament we've created; HN (Honor of the Nerds), I enjoyed myself :D.

22. Did you fall in love in 2012?

Since I said no last year I'd have to say yes, that it happened this year. Cause I did. And she didn't feel the same. And that's that.

23. How many one-night stands?

0

24. What was your favorite TV program?

Så mycket bättre, season 4.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

I don't think so.

26. What was the best book you read?

Eh I don't know, I don't remember.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Ingrid Michaelsson, she is awesome!

28. What did you want and got?

I don't know. I wanted to finish my bachelor thesis in time and I did.

29. What did you want and not get?

I think there are some things but I can't really specify.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?

I think I didn't get to see Les Miserables until this year. So I'm cheating a bit and going to say that.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 22. I had one awesome birthday party with a whole lot of my friends, I won't forget that.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

More time and confidence.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 202?

I wear clothes, let me be. Also it's fun to try crazy stuff.

34. What kept you sane?

My friends.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Seriously just no.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

Overall equality and anti-rascism and things like that. Also job-politics.

37. Who did you miss?

I missed almost all of my friends actually. I felt like we didn't see eachother enough.

38. Who was the best new person you met?

I met a lot of new people through UNF and I really like many of them.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013:

Do stuff.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Like earlier years I will try to use ”only” 5 songs. They're more about what I've felt than what actually occured I think. Also they're not all about me directly. Heaven forbid and the line ”I don't know how to get you out of this one” is especially about trying to help others but all of them are kind of mixed bags of me and people close to me.

Fine white sheet and candles too
Beds in a straight row,
One’s for you
No one talks
Straight at you
Just outside in the hall way

Flowers in the window
Red and blue
Rose, people here still think of you
No bleeding eyes
When they pass
Don’t bang your head
Against the glass

What can I do
I am losing you
What can I do
I am losing you

From the doorway
watching you sleep
Before you wake up
not when you eat
Keep it straight
Wipe your mouth
Keep it down
Rose, don’t shout

What can I doo
I am losing you
What can I do
I am losing you
What can I doo
I am losing you
What can I do
I am losing you

Losing You by Anna Ternheim

Så var det med sommaren
Och tjong då var det höst igen
Med samma gamla trötta attribut

Det är inget nytt att det blir höst
Men inte heller någon tröst
Att veta att man har mått såhär förut

Jag drar halsduken allt hårdare runtom min hesa halls
Tills jag plötsligt inser att jag knappt kan andas alls
Det är väl inte det att något gör mig ledsen
Det är väl mera det att inget gör mig glad

Var god tag plats på nedstämdhetsexpressen
Enkel resa emot Melankolia stad

Visst borde jag ta mig i kragen
Leva ut och fånga dagen
Festa till och prova bungie-jump

Vara här och nu och mitt i livet
Men själva initiativet
Sitter märkligt fast som i en kramp

Så jag tror det att blir jag och TVn även denna kväll
Det känns förövrigt ganska skevt att gråta i en karusell
Blir mest beklämd utav upplevelsestressen
Visst vill jag vara med om, men vet inte vad

Så här kommer jag med nedstämdhetsexpressen
I hundrafemtio knyck mot Melankolia stad

Du säger att tröttheten mitt hjärta rymmer
Ja just den typen av bekymmer
Lider många människor av idag

Men du har svårare för att beskriva
Vad som är det positiva
Med att det finns fler som mår som jag

För jag skiter i om jag är en av hundratusental
Det gör ju inte mindre ont bara för att smärtan är normal
Själva omtanken ökar bara pressen
Det smakar skuld om varje kopp med varm choklad

Man har en egen vagn på nedstämdhetsexpressen
Man åker ensam emot Melankolia stad

Du säger att du saknar mig
Jag saknar saknaden i sig
Hur vackert, hur fult allting var

Och när allting kommer ikring
Är ju allting bättre än ingenting
Men ingenting är allting jag har kvar

Nu känner jag hur tåget saktar av och stannar till
Och jag reser långsamt på mig, det är väl inte att jag vill
Men vi är framme vid den slutliga adressen
Dags att ta plats i skuggfigurernas parad

Ändhållplats för nedstämdhetsexpressen
Vi är framme i Melankolia stad

Här går jag genom gråa gränder
Över askbeströdda stränder
Tunga steg i stillastånden höst

Genom tjock och klibbig dimma
Var minut känns som en timma
När jag plötsligt minns det sista av din röst

Du sa det här är inget avsked för när du väl kommer dit
Ja då kommer du att minnas, du är bara på visit
Jag vet ditt hjärta är så tungt att det vill fly ditt bröst
Och just nu är det kanske ingen lindring eller tröst

Men jag finns kvar på andra sidan av processen
Och du ska återvända som du alltid gjort

Det går returresor med nedstämdhetsexpressen
Dom går stadigt, men inte lika fort
Dom går stadigt, men inte lika fort

Melankolia stad by Loke Nyberg

Du säger att kärleken aldrig var till för dig
Att du aldrig känt vinden högt över trädtoppen
Du säger att den delar sig vid kinden
Och blir hel igen bakom dig

Varje moln är trasigt
Du räknar allt sorgligt natten lång
Och hon du älskade en gång
Och kanske älskar än
Spelar det någon roll?
Nej kanske ingen
Kanske allt egentligen

Du säger 'har du tändstickor?'
Ja tillräckligt om du vill bränna ner Stockholm
'Och har du vin och sprit?'
Så att det räcker att få hela fjärden full av sorger
Allt det är för sent
För sent för vin, för sent för kärlek ren som snö
Inatt finns ingen väg tillbaks

Och du undrar vem som kysser henne nu
Och du undrar vem
Vem om inte du
Och läpparna, du kallade dina
Det gör ont att veta
Men lika ont att undra

Du säger 'har du tändstickor?'
Ja tillräckligt om du vill bränna ner stockholm
'Och har du vin och sprit?'
Så att det räcker för att få hela fjärden full av sorger
Allt det är för sent
För sent för vin, för sent för kärlek ren som snö
Inatt finns ingen väg tillbaks, ingen alls

För sent för edelweiss
Ingen alls
För sent för edelweiss
Ingen alls
För sent för edelweiss

För sent för edelweiss by Håkan Hellström

Mother, give me back my old room
I won't make a mess like I used to,
won't play my records loud at nights,
I'll keep it quiet
Mother, let me have my old bed back
and lay out clothes for me.

People give me work and money
They depend on me now,
if they only knew how thin the ice they walk on is.
If they only knew how thin the ice they walk on
is

Mother, please make my decisions
like you once did,
this time I won't pester you about it,
I'll surrender Mother, these streets
are too cold for me
I'm standing by your door a plant under each arm,
let me move back in

Father, the last time you offered to teach me
all about the Baltic Sea it was wasted on me.
Now I'm ready, throw me once again
the footballs you tried to throw and this time
I will catch and learn and know

Mother, if that's not enough
bring me all the way back to
my original address
to your womb.

I have trouble sleeping but I don't recall I had while in your womb.

Parenting Never Ends by Hello Saferide

Twenty years, it's breaking you down
now that you understand there's no one around
Take a breath, just take a seat
you're falling apart and tearing at the seams

Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why
Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright

It's on your face, is it on your mind
would you care to build a house of your own
How much longer, how long can you wait
It's like you wanted to go and give yourself away

Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why
Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright
Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why
Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright

It feels good (Is that reason enough for you)
It feels good (Is that reason enough for you)
It feels good (Is that reason enough for you)
It feels good (Is that reason enough for you)

Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why
Hold on tight wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright
Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why
Hold on tight wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright

Out of this one
I don't know how to get you out of this one
I don't know how to get you out of this one
I don't know how to get you out of this one
I don't know how to get you out of this one

Heaven Forbid by The Fray

END-12 THE ONES LAST YEAR AWARDS!

I'm doing these awards again this year, yes. I'll be telling you my favourite in several different categories and a runner up.. in other words 2 titles/people/whatever wins in each category! There's not really any order to the two in each category so both win equally.

BEST LIVE PERFORMANCE 2013

Looptropp Rockers at IOGT-NTOs Kongresser in Borås

It was heartpounding, it was awesome, it was amazing.

Loke Nyberg during NärCon in Linköping.

I actually saw Bruce Springsteen again this year. I don't know if it's because new is always new but I couldn't leave out Loke or Looptroop Rockers even though Springsteen was great. Anyway, he's got great songs and I loved the short time I got to see him.

BEST ALBUM 2013

”Om du vill vara med mig” by Melissa Horn

A lot of artists that I like released albums this year. Melissa was the only one that didn't dissapoint I think. Her songs are as good as ever! Drömmen om Alice is one of my favorites.

"Mitt hjärta är en bomb” by Looptroop Rockers

This just proves that Looptroop Rockers should do more in swedish, almost all of the songs are just amazing in my eyes.

BEST GAME 2013

The Last of Us

It was just an incredible experience; to me, it was both emotional and a blooming world. I loved the dialog and the two characters.

The Stanley Parable

What can I say? Incredible dialog and an incredible exploration of choice and games and choice in games.

BEST ANIME 2013

Hunter x Hunter

I really love this series, everything about it. The king have been playing gungi for much of the year and even that is really awesome.

Shingeki no Kyojin

It came out of nowhere, it is huge all of a sudden, it is a little overrated, it could've been so much more. But at least the first season is really worthwhile to watch.

BEST MOVIE 2013

Les Miserables

Again, I saw it this year and didn't get a chance to award it prizes so I'm doing it now. I don't know what to say but; I'm in love with this movie and every song!

The Hunger Games: Catching Fire

Iron Man 3 was good, the second Hobbit-movie was good but to me, the second Hunger Games movie captivated me most of all, I'm surprised by that fact but it is the truth.

Awards taken out from last year:

Many, I felt like narrowing it down.

If you happen to have any award that you feel I should’ve given out, it’s not too late yet! If anybody suggests something in the comments I could give out more awards in a later post next month or something. But you have to give me categories for me to give prizes in.

Alright, that’s it. And now a classic: the song of today:

The song of today:
You and I by Ingrid Michaelson

I first listened to Ingrid Michaelson know who she was this year. And I just know that she is great. This song is what made me discover her music and I can guarantee I listened to like all her songs after hearing it. It is that good. It is so cute, sweet and inocent, at the same time it makes quite casual references to having sex. I feel that it is charming and doesn't take things to levels that things don't need to be taken to, love and sex could be just that simple. Also, I like the dreaming nature to the rest of the song, it is naive and lovely in that way.

That's it, I hope you have a fantastic year ahead of you, I will try to make mine awesome.